Venting I don't feel real, I don't know what I am.

[aidenjoni]

I am 25m and for as long as I can remember I struggle with feelings of obsession, severe depression, body image issues, the whole package. I have trusted and tried time and time again to be better and it feels at this point that the universe itself doesn't want me to. I have such a long history with abuse and lies and it drives me insane. I feel like I can't beat my obsessions. I have never posted here or on any suicidal forum before, I thought I could make it if i kept trying. But after so long, I really am starting to see no purpose in this. I am in such intense and awful mental anguish daily. I really do wonder how much longer this can happen.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Welcome to the forum. I'm so sorry to hear of your struggles. There are a number of members here who I'm sure will be able to relate to what you are going through. We may not be able to help much but, there are plenty willing to listen. I hope that might bring you some sense of solace.