I don’t even know how I found this site? Not something that pops up on a search. Glad I did as it’s balanced not just negative.

[Graham]

As above

How did you find this place?

I've struggled on and off for many years but only found this place after going to do a full jump

I don't know how I found it as If I'm logged out it won't come up or I get Samaritans

I must of tried hard to get here

 

[chloramine]

I had been researching methods for years, but I didn't find this site until I saw the nyt article about it and specifically searched for it. It does not show up in a generic search, which is too bad because I could have used having this place way earlier. Maybe you happened to put the right combination of words into the right place?

 

[Graham]

I had been researching methods for years, but I didn't find this site until I saw the nyt article about it and specifically searched for it. It does not show up in a generic search, which is too bad because I could have used having this place way earlier. Maybe you happened to put the right combination of words into the right place?

I dunno

Do you feel better for being here?

I do

It's 'nice' (not a great word perhaps) to have other people going through struggles to relate to

May be it's a good thing it's hard to find

 

[chloramine]

I dunno

Do you feel better for being here?

I do

It's 'nice' (not a great word perhaps) to have other people going through struggles to relate to

May be it's a good thing it's hard to find

I feel better for having it yeah. I'm grateful this site exists and while I wish there weren't so many people having to deal with this, it's nice to have it understood.

Realistically it probably is good that it's hard to find- hard to say for sure whether the pros outweigh the cons, but there are solid arguments for both sides

 

[Graham]

I feel better for having it yeah. I'm grateful this site exists and while I wish there weren't so many people having to deal with this, it's nice to have it understood.

Realistically it probably is good that it's hard to find- hard to say for sure whether the pros outweigh the cons, but there are solid arguments for both sides

I think it's good it's hard to find (though chat is a different world)

It's good to talk to like minded people

Maybe we talk ourselves into it or out of it

Maybe we just talk - rather than post

Post and talk

Get to know each other as much or little as we want to give away

Gx

I feel better for having it yeah. I'm grateful this site exists and while I wish there weren't so many people having to deal with this, it's nice to have it understood.

Realistically it probably is good that it's hard to find- hard to say for sure whether the pros outweigh the cons, but there are solid arguments for both sides

We're all humans at the end of the day

Let's help each other as much as we can

Gx
I'm always happy to help or be helped

Fuck

That's why we are here

 

[splashofvanilla]

Ironically i found this site from one of those news saying xxx suicide forum is killing our children they forgot to censor the name from an earlier reporting on the site

Glad i found this place it put things in perspective other places that help talk about suicide kinda are a little to much censored

 

[ornitier199]

I knew this site since 2018. I even registered then and forgot about it—for the same reason, it's no different than any other site, especially that subreddit.
The fact that it is social media, and built esque it, (likes/reactions etc.), speaks for itself. I made the mistake of trying this.
It's simple, I want to die I die, I don't go posting about it. I just do it. That is one thing Alexander taught me that was worth hearing, remembering keeping, learning. Just do it. Now I see it includes whenever.

 

[Slimetae]

Idk I think I just looked up something about suicide bc shit I was tired one day but this popped up and I started lurking till one day I just said fuck it and joined .

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I had been researching methods for years, but I didn't find this site until I saw the nyt article about it and specifically searched for it.

Ironically i found this site from one of those news saying xxx suicide forum is killing our children they forgot to censor the name from an earlier reporting on the site

I love that the efforts to portray this site as some sort of morally bankrupt reservoir of child killers have backfired, and that more people like us have been able to find comfort and support here.

 

[toasterbath]

I found this site while reading some article about how this woman who was a 25 year old Amazon worker followed instructions online to commit suicide. I wanted to know like where she got that info from so I started searching from there lol

 

[bitter_sweet]

I remember the days of alt.suicide.holiday, and feeling pretty devastated when it was shut down. Years later, feeling more hopeless then ever, I searched on Reddit for a alternative and SS was mentioned. I think it's helpful for many of us that need to know we aren't alone or worry about being censored.

 

[Meretlein]

Finding this site simultaneously feels both a lifetime ago and yesterday. I found this site on Reddit, and I was very young when I found it, so I came of age on this site in many ways. Especially when I was too miserable to do anything, it gave me the courage to strive for life at first, and when that did not pan out, it gave me the desire to strive for a death that mitigates the life I have lived.

 

[_smile_]

I reached such a low point in my life that I thought there HAS to be a place where others like me, who want to die, can talk freely about it. I'd say I found it after 2 minutes of searching. I've only been here a couple days. Right now, I think it calms me. Gives me a piece of serenity knowing I'm not suffering alone and I have an outlet.

I personally wish I could make a friend from here. Just someone I can talk to who fully understands how I'm feeling. Maybe one day. But glad you're here regardless of how you found it.

 

[obafgkm]

I read about a fancy self serve nitrogen capsule recently in the news, then searched for it, saw some msm report about suicide forums. I think I just searched "suicide forums". This site showed up after about 5 pages.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

As above

How did you find this place?

I've struggled on and off for many years but only found this place after going to do a full jump

I don't know how I found it as If I'm logged out it won't come up or I get Samaritans

I must of tried hard to get here

Through the unlikely helpfulness of Reddit. S.S. used to be there before it was banned. It used to come up on Google but I think they burried it, at least further down so it's not easily found.
Duck Duck Go is hit or miss. The other day it didn't come up but just now it did. That was cuz I typed in Sanctioned Suicide. Just a search for suicide websites doesn't bring it up.
S.S. is on twitter if someone looks there.

 

[veryhappyhuman]

I remember the days of alt.suicide.holiday, and feeling pretty devastated when it was shut down. Years later, feeling more hopeless then ever, I searched on Reddit for a alternative and SS was mentioned. I think it's helpful for many of us that need to know we aren't alone or worry about being censored.

Ah, nice to see another veteran lol. I was part of the ASH google group (c. 2011/12) before it got banned, and a bunch of other such forums, including an auto-erotic asphyxiation one (obviously wasn't there for the erotic part lol). Then I had my first failed ctb attempt and decided to dO sOmEThInG aBoUT mY LiFe. Dropped out of the suicide "scene" for a few years, while I pointlessly tried to salvage my life. Circa mid 2019, life was inevitably starting to spiral down again with a failed fling and terrible job, so I was trying to get the latest edition of PPH. Googled a product SKU mentioned in it, bc I couldn't believe something mentioned favorably in the fucking PPH was being openly sold on the billion$ marketplace we all know and love (TM)! One of the google results was SaSu and the rest is history.

I was dreading an influx of prolifers here after the NYT story (as I'm sure the NYT was hoping for too when they did the story). But things seem to have gone the other way and they just seem to have introduced it to more ctb-ers. The irony!

 

[Cali101]

Yeah that newspaper article was free publicity. I never would have found this site if they didnt write an article about its existence.

Given how alt.suicide holiday is gone, the reddit group is gone. Is there a plan if this website ever goes down? This site is pretty good therapy for me things would be a lot harder if I hadn't found it. Ironically I'd probably be gone now if I hadnt. Being able to get the knowledge so I have what I need to make a quick exit if I need to has made it so much easier to stick around for now.

 

[veryhappyhuman]

Yeah that newspaper article was free publicity. I never would have found this site if they didnt write an article about its existence.

Given how alt.suicide holiday is gone, the reddit group is gone. Is there a plan if this website ever goes down? This site is pretty good therapy for me things would be a lot harder if I hadn't found it. Ironically I'd probably be gone now if I hadnt. Being able to get the knowledge so I have what I need to make a quick exit if I need to has made it so much easier to stick around for now.

I think there's a telegram group for this forum already (though I'm not part of it). AFAIK telegram groups have been infamous for being difficult to shut down even for legit cases so should be ok for a while.

 

[Graham]

I reached such a low point in my life that I thought there HAS to be a place where others like me, who want to die, can talk freely about it. I'd say I found it after 2 minutes of searching. I've only been here a couple days. Right now, I think it calms me. Gives me a piece of serenity knowing I'm not suffering alone and I have an outlet.

I personally wish I could make a friend from here. Just someone I can talk to who fully understands how I'm feeling. Maybe one day. But glad you're here regardless of how you found it.

Happy to talk to you if you want

 

[Shu]

If it wasn't for @NoLifeNoPain I don't think i would have found SaSu or still be alive today.

 

[Deleted member 847]

If it wasn't for @NoLifeNoPain I don't think i would have found SaSu or still be alive today.

Yeah my thread really gave some visibility to SS on google back in the days, didn't it

 

[idk1]

Yeah my thread really gave some visibility to SS on google back in the days, didn't it

I'm pretty sure your "how to hang yourself" thread got me here from DuckDuckGo. Thanks bro!

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that by chance I came across an pro life nonsense type article about this site and of course I wanted to find it as I wanted to leave this world very badly. It did not mention the name of it, but soon enough I found this place. I think that from this site I learned how difficult suicide really is, and unfortunately I am still here today. I wish that I left earlier and was gone instead of posting about wanting to die, but of course dying is not easy for me. Suicide should not be so difficult and a peaceful exit should be a human right.

 

[bitter_sweet]

Ah, nice to see another veteran lol. I was part of the ASH google group (c. 2011/12) before it got banned, and a bunch of other such forums, including an auto-erotic asphyxiation one (obviously wasn't there for the erotic part lol). Then I had my first failed ctb attempt and decided to dO sOmEThInG aBoUT mY LiFe. Dropped out of the suicide "scene" for a few years, while I pointlessly tried to salvage my life. Circa mid 2019, life was inevitably starting to spiral down again with a failed fling and terrible job, so I was trying to get the latest edition of PPH. Googled a product SKU mentioned in it, bc I couldn't believe something mentioned favorably in the fucking PPH was being openly sold on the billion$ marketplace we all know and love (TM)! One of the google results was SaSu and the rest is history.

I was dreading an influx of prolifers here after the NYT story (as I'm sure the NYT was hoping for too when they did the story). But things seem to have gone the other way and they just seem to have introduced it to more ctb-ers. The irony!

Hey, glad to hear from another former ASH member! I've also tried to get help over the last ten years. Thousands of dollars on failed ketamine treatment and therapy (thank you shit employer health insurance), and I've come back full circle to CTB forums. It should feel devastating to be back, but I think the painful truth is self destruction is rooted in my psyche. My relationships with other people have always been precarious which has led to self isolation. Motivation null.
It feels strangely good to be back here, even if its only for warm wishes on my way out.

I also read the NYT story. Had to chuckle a bit at these replies stating the article is what led them here. We are all at the mercy of unintended consequences, I guess.

 

[freedompass]

As above

How did you find this place?

I've struggled on and off for many years but only found this place after going to do a full jump

I don't know how I found it as If I'm logged out it won't come up or I get Samaritans

I must of tried hard to get here

I started out back in 2016 on the subreddit which I'd check every day for quite a while. Later I felt bereft when I heard it had been banned. There wasn't anything like it anywhere and other subs were quarantined and not the same. I remember coming across the new SaSu months later but didn't immediately connect as I had been feeling better. From the posts I did read the members seemed young. A year or two later I went back and joined. I didn't post as much back then as I do now as I had a kind of social anxiety even online. Then I found that I'd been banned for a suspected alt account. No idea how that happened, it's quite possible I tried to join again after or during a manic episode, forgetting that I was already a member. I appealed to the mods several times but they didn't let me back until I found some sort of workaround and was happy to get access again after the months of banishment. Since I've been back I've felt like posting a lot more and no longer feel the anxiety I did, so that's positive. There still is no place I know of anywhere online where I feel able to speak my mind to this extent. With all its faults I am happy and grateful for the refuge this place provides, free of the tyranny of toxic positivity.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Yeah my thread really gave some visibility to SS on google back in the days, didn't it

I'm pretty sure your "how to hang yourself" thread got me here from DuckDuckGo. Thanks bro!

That was the thread that brought me here too! I wonder if it still shows up in search results.

 

[Graham]

Had a massif blow out over the weekend

They say you have to hit rock bottom before you come back up

Done that

Hope I wasn't too much of a cunt

Coming back up

 

[Deleted member 847]

That was the thread that brought me here too! I wonder if it still shows up in search results.

I checked both on google and duck.
No trace of my thread

 

[Brick In The Wall]

"I found this place the same way I found your mum." Signed, everyone on the internet.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

How did you find this place?

Was on my way to kindergarten when the moderation team dragged me into a van. They beat me until I admitted I was a pro-life cuck, and they threw me into a basement. After fifteen years of imprisonment they all walked into my cell at once (usually they only came one at a time to ask me for bitcoins or to cry uncontrollably in front of me). Standing in a circle around me, in unison, they spoke: "Make yourself useful, based one. There are still children left alive out there."