Venting I don't enjoy life

[sonfecibisiklet]

First of all, i have so much going through in my mind and i dont usually write down my thoughts but i like use this website as you can write down your thoughts and nobody is judging you

i guess its because yall know that you cant judge a person before you know what the person been through and give some bs advices like "do some sport, learn hobbies"

i cant make friends because im grumpy and im grumpy because i dont have any frienda its like a paradox that i cant leave

i built walls around me since i was a child and im still socially awkward been quiet kid since highschool

have a narcissist father who thinks only himself

had some relationships that didnt work out and i regret about just one relationship that i pushed it away
i had the greatest quality time spend with my ex partner and i hate myself for not appreciating it

to remind yall im just whining about my problems and using this website as my diary or something like that but i would appreciate your any kind of comments or advices and thank you for your time reading

i think a lot of people in this website has or still experiencing loneliness in some kind and know what i feel like now

this kinda helped me to clear my mind a bit that i forgot what to write down more

anyway thank you for reading

 

[DivineSpark]

I am struggling with anhedonia, it is condition where you are unable to experience pleasure and joy in your life. Struggling everyday, no pleasure, just anxiety and anhedonia.

 

[derekWest]

I am struggling with anhedonia, it is condition where you are unable to experience pleasure and joy in your life. Struggling everyday, no pleasure, just anxiety and anhedonia.

i think i might have this fucking shit also.

 

[Eedrah]

i think i might have this fucking shit also.

i get like this for short periods of time, but it never lasts all that long, im sorry spark, i cant imagine

First of all, i have so much going through in my mind and i dont usually write down my thoughts but i like use this website as you can write down your thoughts and nobody is judging you

i guess its because yall know that you cant judge a person before you know what the person been through and give some bs advices like "do some sport, learn hobbies"

i cant make friends because im grumpy and im grumpy because i dont have any frienda its like a paradox that i cant leave

i built walls around me since i was a child and im still socially awkward been quiet kid since highschool

have a narcissist father who thinks only himself

had some relationships that didnt work out and i regret about just one relationship that i pushed it away
i had the greatest quality time spend with my ex partner and i hate myself for not appreciating it

to remind yall im just whining about my problems and using this website as my diary or something like that but i would appreciate your any kind of comments or advices and thank you for your time reading

i think a lot of people in this website has or still experiencing loneliness in some kind and know what i feel like now

this kinda helped me to clear my mind a bit that i forgot what to write down more

anyway thank you for reading

thanks for writing, i enjoyed reading it. i often forget what i want to write as soon as i start writing, or during the process of thinking about how to write it, so i havnt even made my own post here yet. but yeah, its been really great to read everyones experiences and just not feel alone

 

[TheLastGreySky]

First of all, i have so much going through in my mind and i dont usually write down my thoughts but i like use this website as you can write down your thoughts and nobody is judging you

i guess its because yall know that you cant judge a person before you know what the person been through and give some bs advices like "do some sport, learn hobbies"

i cant make friends because im grumpy and im grumpy because i dont have any frienda its like a paradox that i cant leave

i built walls around me since i was a child and im still socially awkward been quiet kid since highschool

have a narcissist father who thinks only himself

had some relationships that didnt work out and i regret about just one relationship that i pushed it away
i had the greatest quality time spend with my ex partner and i hate myself for not appreciating it

to remind yall im just whining about my problems and using this website as my diary or something like that but i would appreciate your any kind of comments or advices and thank you for your time reading

i think a lot of people in this website has or still experiencing loneliness in some kind and know what i feel like now

this kinda helped me to clear my mind a bit that i forgot what to write down more

anyway thank you for reading

So you're in a rut. the truth is we get into patterns and we're not sure how to get out a patterns because we always try to switch into a different "mode" just to fall back into our default setting.
To actually change you have to believe you can change and to consistently adopt whatever you're wanting to incorporate... And I'm not going to lie to you it's really fucking hard. Especially when your mind is against you.

I will say something that might be irritating at first but I think it'll prove itself true... You're only affected by things as much as you allow yourself to be engaged by them. Avoid your narcissistic father and if he yells at you treat you bad etc, meh that's just "Monday". I've had to adopt a level toxic positivity during some of the hardest times in my life. If you cannot cope with your situation and feel like you're about to break mentally, then you should really remind yourself that people lied to themselves everyday... But before you dismiss this hear me out... No only do they lie to themselves everyday... They actually believe their lies and manifest them into reality. By changing your perspective you legitimately make subconscious micro changes. So I do hope you consider changing your perspective because you're capable of breaking all your bad habits.

The only thing I wouldn't recommend is to hype yourself up and then crash. One day at a time and you'll get wherever you want to go.

I am struggling with anhedonia, it is condition where you are unable to experience pleasure and joy in your life. Struggling everyday, no pleasure, just anxiety and anhedonia.

I almost CTB because of it. It took a breakdown 2 years after I noticed I had it for me to really feel any relief. So I'm sorry you're going through that.