idk if this is the place to vent about something like this but yea.. im on reddit. i try to stay off & have been but decided to log back in to talk to a person who's been there for me through my suicidal thoughts. i see that i have a message from someone i use to chat with & supposedly was successful with their suicide back in march of this year. obviously i have tons of questions so i click on their message ready to check up on them & hope they have gotten better. but it says " hi. Instead of encouraging people who are suicudal you should get them help by reporting them and try to keep them Alive please don't D I thus to any one else in the future "
from late february to march, i was there for this person. my suicide thoughts was probably the highest its been at that time (besides this past month). this person claimed to have chronic illness their whole life & was ready to go. i never encouraged them to do suicide. i was hesitant to tell them about my set when they asked. i was hesitating everything i told them because i didn't want them to feel like i was encouraging them. they told me what rope they were using, i told them mines. they even told me to "make sure my anchor point is sturdy". pretty sure we mentioned this site as well if i can remember correctly they said they have been reading on here. i was there for this person till the last minute of their suicide & i asked are they sure is this what they want & that i wish them peace. few months go by i wish them peace again knowing that the suicide was probably successful.
idk if this is someone on their account or themselves but either way this just confirms my reasoning on wanting to be alone. nothing i do is right. im in no way trying to gain sympathy or anything from this but seriously it feels like everything i do is wrong & everyone is against me. im a no body who just understands how it feel to be in this dark place alone. i am 20. this person claimed to be 24. everyone makes their own decisions. my mind is spinning right now. i wont be using reddit anymore & i barely come on here so yea. i can also understand this person but again my intentions wasnt to encourage anyone to do suicide. im sorry to anyone i have chatted with & you felt that way as well. i just try to help & it makes me feel slightly better to chat with someone who understands & dont instantly try throwing me in a ward or something as fucked up as that might sound. if you read this far thank you & hope you have a good day.
from late february to march, i was there for this person. my suicide thoughts was probably the highest its been at that time (besides this past month). this person claimed to have chronic illness their whole life & was ready to go. i never encouraged them to do suicide. i was hesitant to tell them about my set when they asked. i was hesitating everything i told them because i didn't want them to feel like i was encouraging them. they told me what rope they were using, i told them mines. they even told me to "make sure my anchor point is sturdy". pretty sure we mentioned this site as well if i can remember correctly they said they have been reading on here. i was there for this person till the last minute of their suicide & i asked are they sure is this what they want & that i wish them peace. few months go by i wish them peace again knowing that the suicide was probably successful.
idk if this is someone on their account or themselves but either way this just confirms my reasoning on wanting to be alone. nothing i do is right. im in no way trying to gain sympathy or anything from this but seriously it feels like everything i do is wrong & everyone is against me. im a no body who just understands how it feel to be in this dark place alone. i am 20. this person claimed to be 24. everyone makes their own decisions. my mind is spinning right now. i wont be using reddit anymore & i barely come on here so yea. i can also understand this person but again my intentions wasnt to encourage anyone to do suicide. im sorry to anyone i have chatted with & you felt that way as well. i just try to help & it makes me feel slightly better to chat with someone who understands & dont instantly try throwing me in a ward or something as fucked up as that might sound. if you read this far thank you & hope you have a good day.
