ItsMe-Hecked
Student
- Dec 30, 2021
- 123
I don't care about who finds my body. Who my parents will talk shit about me to, even when I'm dead. Who my sister tells that I "didn't value human life" because I dare question her fake, inconsistent political beliefs. The psychologists who "just wanted to help", but "didn't know what to do". The people from my schools, summer camps, jobs, extracurriculars who never even glanced at me while I was alive (or more likely, bullied me) - they all of a sudden claim that I lit up any room I walked into. The ex-friends, and people I've met in hospitals, all who've abandoned me, now "just wanted the best for me". My family who think I'm a failure for not slaving away to capitalism. My teachers who mocked me for being depressed in class, and then patronized me with "how much they care about my situation". The people who use my death as a way to advocate for suicide prevention...
I don't care about that. Not anymore. Wanna know what I care about? How the hell am I supposed to deal with my actual death? Its stressful. I want this more than anything. I want this more than having someone love me. I want this more than being a respected film director who has influence over the shitty culture we live in. I just want to stop suffering, and for the shitty people around me to stop forcing their pro-life bullshit onto me. None of these people are really "pro-life". They're just brainwashed to the point where they can't FATHOM that anyone would dislike the 40 hour work week, or the social game. They don't want me to leave, but I know I'm going to.
Also, if my parents are reading this thread, fuck you. You have no right to impede my privacy, and read my personal online shit. Please get help. You're crazy.
Lol this is gonna get me kicked out. You guys watch.
I don't care about that. Not anymore. Wanna know what I care about? How the hell am I supposed to deal with my actual death? Its stressful. I want this more than anything. I want this more than having someone love me. I want this more than being a respected film director who has influence over the shitty culture we live in. I just want to stop suffering, and for the shitty people around me to stop forcing their pro-life bullshit onto me. None of these people are really "pro-life". They're just brainwashed to the point where they can't FATHOM that anyone would dislike the 40 hour work week, or the social game. They don't want me to leave, but I know I'm going to.
Also, if my parents are reading this thread, fuck you. You have no right to impede my privacy, and read my personal online shit. Please get help. You're crazy.
Lol this is gonna get me kicked out. You guys watch.