I think it is a mistake with my priorities. I have the duty to do everything I can to prevent my suicide. (in my own head) And my social contacts can help to prevent my suicide. I am not fully sure whether I am able to go through with it.
I think I will take some people with me into the abyss. But maybe that's an exaggeration. I think my mom, dad or grandma might die if I kill myself. But well they are sort of responsible for this mess.
I am not sure whether there will be domino suicides. I don't have high risk candidates in my environment. I have a borderline friend who attempted and she will be really mad at me. I also did not tell her how serious it was the last time. I also fully played it down in my self-help group.
I think most of them will find a way to live with it. Like in this clinic for acute suicide people where this woman ctb. Yes suicie is contagious but most people find a way to live with such a loss. I think some people might bullshit themselves or suppress the thoughts of that person to feel better. They try to forget the existence of this person. And this was exactly my way of coping. If a close friend ctb that's more difficult though.
I think though the majority of my friends will have a good life despite of my suicide. WIth my parents that's another story.
I think I will take some people with me into the abyss. But maybe that's an exaggeration. I think my mom, dad or grandma might die if I kill myself. But well they are sort of responsible for this mess.
I am not sure whether there will be domino suicides. I don't have high risk candidates in my environment. I have a borderline friend who attempted and she will be really mad at me. I also did not tell her how serious it was the last time. I also fully played it down in my self-help group.
I think most of them will find a way to live with it. Like in this clinic for acute suicide people where this woman ctb. Yes suicie is contagious but most people find a way to live with such a loss. I think some people might bullshit themselves or suppress the thoughts of that person to feel better. They try to forget the existence of this person. And this was exactly my way of coping. If a close friend ctb that's more difficult though.
I think though the majority of my friends will have a good life despite of my suicide. WIth my parents that's another story.
