I Don `t want to live anymore

[SadGirl]

I think I felt really loved once in my life, with my ex-fiancée. I still love her, but she doesn't want to come back, even though she says she loves me too. My world is colorless, lifeless, I feel apathetic, I don't want to be here anymore, I don't know if I'm ready to die, but I don't want to stay here, I just wanted to sleep forever, not feel anything else.

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate.
I lost the love of my life because I ended up loving loneliness more but damn, I miss her.
I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. I know how much living and loving can hurt.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I think I felt really loved once in my life, with my ex-fiancée. I still love her, but she doesn't want to come back, even though she says she loves me too. My world is colorless, lifeless, I feel apathetic, I don't want to be here anymore, I don't know if I'm ready to die, but I don't want to stay here, I just wanted to sleep forever, not feel anything else.

I could have written these exact words myself. When my girlfriend left it drained all the colors from my life. Now I've just been reduced to The most rudimentary life functions.

 

[NormaJeane]

Life will be meaningless for many of us when life expectancy is so high.

 

[Grumpy Bear]

Why does this site have an affinity for bumping old threads??

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just want to sleep forever. Life is suffering, it is painful just being alive. When you are dead you cannot feel or experience anything anymore.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Why does this site have an affinity for bumping old threads??

People have nothing to do. It is quite sad

 

[falling bird]

I can relate.
I lost the love of my life because I ended up loving loneliness more but damn, I miss her.
I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. I know how much living and loving can hurt.

Why her name cross out, what is that mean?

 

[4eyebiped]

It is customary tradition in forums to use the dark arts of necromancy to resurrect dead threads of the forgotten past. This thread wasn't very old so the person resurrecting it has weak necromantic skill. I have seen some powerful wizards bring threads back from decades ago. I would not want to piss one of those guys off.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I have been trying to get better for 10yrs+, however things are just getting worse, not better. I do get a lot of positive support from this forum & I'm so grateful I at least have it; there are some absolutely wonderful souls here. But I really am DONE. Like my user name says. I'm really just like a living ghost anyway. But I feel like I've reached a tipping or breaking point of sorts. This thread interested me cuz I felt I could relate. Like something inside me that was keeping me going has finally died & I no longer feel I have anything or anyone holding me back.
Also, unrelated, but I don't feel bad at all about posting in this 'old' thread.
I saw a comment about 'why do people bump old threads?' (to be clear, I am venting here & if someone thinks I'm pathetic for posting in an old thread cuz I have nothing better to do… with all due respect.. I Don't give a FUCK!). I prefer to vent like this rather than start my own threads. Reason is simple, tho I don't owe any explanation, I'll attempt to give one. I feel like starting a thread of my own would potentially get me much more attention than I want. I don't want attention from the whole site. I generally prefer to sorta hide my posts in other threads, I just feel more comfortable & more low profile doing so. I do want attention & care from a specific person I won't name. I would never overtly seek attention as I don't think it's fair for me to put other users, some who I care about deeply in a position where they may feel obligated like they "owe" me a reply or their attention(and time). That's not what I want.
After reexamining the situation from a omniscient point of view it's quite ironic & almost comical.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

I have been trying to get better for 10yrs+, however things are just getting worse, not better. I do get a lot of positive support from this forum & I'm so grateful I at least have it; there are some absolutely wonderful souls here. But I really am DONE. Like my user name says. I'm really just like a living ghost anyway. But I feel like I've reached a tipping or breaking point of sorts. This thread interested me cuz I felt I could relate. Like something inside me that was keeping me going has finally died & I no longer feel I have anything or anyone holding me back.
Also, unrelated, but I don't feel bad at all about posting in this 'old' thread.
I saw a comment about 'why do people bump old threads?' (to be clear, I am venting here & if someone thinks I'm pathetic for posting in an old thread cuz I have nothing better to do… with all due respect.. I Don't give a FUCK!). I prefer to vent like this rather than start my own threads. Reason is simple, tho I don't owe any explanation, I'll attempt to give one. I feel like starting a thread of my own would potentially get me much more attention than I want. I don't want attention from the whole site. I generally prefer to sorta hide my posts in other threads, I just feel more comfortable & more low profile doing so. I do want attention & care from a specific person I won't name. I would never overtly seek attention as I don't think it's fair for me to put other users, some who I care about deeply in a position where they may feel obligated like they "owe" me a reply or their attention(and time). That's not what I want.
After reexamining the situation from a omniscient point of view it's quite ironic & almost comical.

Bumping old threads isn't a sign of nothing better to do. Geez it doesn't take long, so I don't know why that's even a question. Oh shit I typed a comment in an old thread, there goes my entire day.

 

[LoneMisery]

Why does this site have an affinity for bumping old threads??

To each their own if it seriously bothers you then dont comment

 

[DoodleBug]

Absolutely relatable, staying alive is nothing but a senseless chore. The only relief is sleep, although time is relentless and requires our constant attention while our biology ties us with awful limitations and afflictions and endless thirst for something more or whatever.

Its all a mess x-)

 

[Grumpy Bear]

To each their own if it seriously bothers you then dont comment

I'll comment whenever I want. K thanks.

 

[LoneMisery]

I'll comment whenever I want. K thanks.

Your name suits you very well.

 

[Squalo]

every time I go to bed I hope to die while I sleep: I am tired of this selfish and greedy world, and of this body of flesh that I have been carrying around for almost 30 years; the thought of having to continue living in this shitty world for more years makes me want to cry.
I hope to be able to leave this world within this year, I can't take it anymore.

 

[WadeingThru]

I'll comment whenever I want. K thanks.

Get'em Grumpy Bear! You what ya want.

 

[ineedtoctb]

every time I go to bed I hope to die while I sleep: I am tired of this selfish and greedy world, and of this body of flesh that I have been carrying around for almost 30 years; the thought of having to continue living in this shitty world for more years makes me want to cry.
I hope to be able to leave this world within this year, I can't take it anymore.

You said exactly what has been on my mind. It's getting harder to continue living as the days go by. I hope both of us can find peace soon

 

[Rogue]

I think I felt really loved once in my life, with my ex-fiancée. I still love her, but she doesn't want to come back, even though she says she loves me too. My world is colorless, lifeless, I feel apathetic, I don't want to be here anymore, I don't know if I'm ready to die, but I don't want to stay here, I just wanted to sleep forever, not feel anything else.

Same here, I was married for 28 years and I lost my husband to cancer. That was 3 years ago I m so depressed , life means nothing to me anymore. I'm just ready to go.

 

[SadGirl]

Same here, I was married for 28 years and I lost my husband to cancer. That was 3 years ago I m so depressed , life means nothing to me anymore. I'm just ready to go.

This post of mine is old, I'm doing great now, and I've found a new person who makes me happy. Don't give up on life. If you are very depressed, see a doctor, he will help you. And you can always count on us here on the forum. Everything has a reason, you have great chances to improve and be happy.

 

[ViperDepression22]

I can relate

 

[Carlotta16]

This post of mine is old, I'm doing great now, and I've found a new person who makes me happy. Don't give up on life. If you are very depressed, see a doctor, he will help you. And you can always count on us here on the forum. Everything has a reason, you have great chances to improve and be happy.

I'm so happy you have found someone who makes you happy. Its really nice to see that sometimes some people do find happiness. But where do you gk when you've tried everything? When the doctors, psychiatrists and everyone has washed their hands of you? There is no where else to go

 

[September5th]

I think I felt really loved once in my life, with my ex-fiancée. I still love her, but she doesn't want to come back, even though she says she loves me too. My world is colorless, lifeless, I feel apathetic, I don't want to be here anymore, I don't know if I'm ready to die, but I don't want to stay here, I just wanted to sleep forever, not feel anything else.

You described my exact feelings perfectly. "Colorless". That's life right there, folks.
Wish you well, now that you're happy.

 

[LittleJem]

I'm waking up every hour agitated and frightened of being homeless. All I do is read this forum. I'm fantasising about throwing myself off a bridge. I don't know how to live or how to die. I've drunk a bottle of wine and still agitated. I have no idea how to cope with this.
Then people blame me for being homeless and blame me for being disabled.

 

[LoveYoux]

I'm waking up every hour agitated and frightened of being homeless. All I do is read this forum. I'm fantasising about throwing myself off a bridge. I don't know how to live or how to die. I've drunk a bottle of wine and still agitated. I have no idea how to cope with this.
Then people blame me for being homeless and blame me for being disabled.

I don't have the right words, just want you to know you're heard

 

[Someone123]

I think I felt really loved once in my life, with my ex-fiancée. I still love her, but she doesn't want to come back, even though she says she loves me too. My world is colorless, lifeless, I feel apathetic, I don't want to be here anymore, I don't know if I'm ready to die, but I don't want to stay here, I just wanted to sleep forever, not feel anything else.

I know this is tough, but friends and family can help you to heal over time and you can find someone new. It's a tough time, but this is something you can get through.

 

[Here Today]

I know this will sound trite but there are plenty of fish in the sea, it's almost certain statistitcally than there are people even better than your fiance for you out there. Just give it some more time. Best of luck.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know this will sound trite but there are plenty of fish in the sea, it's almost certain statistitcally than there are people even better than your fiance for you out there. Just give it some more time. Best of luck.

You do know that this thread is old. It's from April 2021. I always try to remember to look at dates of threads before replying to stuff. The original poster actually posted an update in this thread a few posts up saying that things improved for them and that they found someone else.

 

[Someone123]

You do know that this thread is old. It's from April 2021. I always try to remember to look at dates of threads before replying to stuff. The original poster actually posted an update in this thread a few posts up saying that things improved for them and that they found someone else.

Thanks, I've got to watch the dates for when old threads resurface. Thanks a lot.

 

[SadGirl]

Just thank you for your support my angels. And to say that I'm over it and I'm very good in this matter. Hugs.