Venting I despise my existence

[Ravel]

some people say that being born is a gift, they make parties, celebrate birthdays. I honestly don't understand this. how am I supposed to be grateful for life if for the most part I just experience misery, sadness, boredom, just the negatives. fuck this world, fuck this life

 

[Gangrel]

we pay to exist at this point in time anyway so thanks existence for being born in this era or something

 

[Kimlett]

Yeah, life is a shitty gift that nobody asked for, and it's not even a gift because you have to pay to stay alive

 

[VoidAetherium]

The way i see things is pretty much a jock or else a maddening experiment by some psychopath scientist creator. Some adapt and survive but others cannot endure such threats. I had being born in the 90s and seeing the growth of technology devouring society while the mental problems was and still devouring me slowly was enough to wish to never had being born. Is like being force or manipulate to live something that is not part or never was part of me. A slave to a system they had corrupted their sick jaws to integrate us. My only hope that is there a way to erase this curse existence of mine so nothing else will remain to feel or witness on this evil existential nightmare!

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I also find it dreadful to exist, I find it a tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence that just caused so much suffering all for the sake of it, I see existence as the most cruel, futile and torturous burden, I'd always prefer to not exist as only then am I unable to suffer but only never existing is true perfection to me.