I feel like i'm going to have a panic attack all day when I think about the fact that my face is on a dating site. It's like I drank way too much caffeine. I wake up every 2 hours and i'm drenched in sweat. I can barely function.
I thought I used good pictures but now I can barely go back to look at them because they're absolutely terrible. It's so embarrassing to me. I made my profile more than 48 hours ago and I still haven't started swiping. I think this whole thing made me more suicidal. But I know that I have to do it. I'm sick of being a friendless loser who never even had a female friend. It's just so painful though. This is the worst I felt in a long time. I don't feel worthy of matching with anyone as stupid as that sounds.
If you want a genuine relationship you won't find it on tinder, only thots looking to fill in a void and horny men. Delete tinder, you will only dig yourself deeper into a void of soulless pain. Maybe most dating apps are like this, idk. I would say Bumble
could work best, but saying that it's the best dating app is really stretching a low bar. I saw discord mentioned and I will say dating servers are cringe as hell and I enjoy laughing at the shit horny simps and thots post. (not that I am better looking or more sociable, I feel the same as you in a lot of regards that whatever I do to look good for people is absolutely cringe.) However, I won't deny that real relationships beyond friendships can be made on there.
I think the best thing for you personally may be to extend yourself more into different communities like people here have said. There are people who will like you as you are, and you have to make an effort to find that even with failure. Don't worry too much about finding a girlfriend, I do not know your age, but I will say that the more you try to go after a getting girlfriend, the more you won't succeed. I've seen this mistake with friends of mine, and even myself.
You just gotta let things happen for yourself. Focus on making more friends, improving yourself, and good genuine things will come your way.
When they do, don't fuck up. Take the opportunities even if they fail.
To put my words into practice, I'll say that a friend of mine recently got a girlfriend after being like a weird simp in highschool and fucking up in some regards. To everyone he was the butt of a joke. He got more involved with his church spending a lot of time each week doing tech work for them, participating more in their groups, and working on his own projects; and eventually he randomly somehow got himself a girlfriend.
Good luck friend, If you don't kill yourself, I hope that one day you find what you're looking for.
