i ctb in just over 24 hours

[natthebrat]

couldnt get my friend to sell me any methadone, so instead im going to take a large dose of a sleep aid, then seal several layers of plastic over my face to suffocate myself and head to sleep forever around 11pm tomorrow. going to text my goodbye to my gf and my best friend immediately before starting, to minimize the chance theyll get the authorities to interrupt and put me in grippy sock jail.

im ngl, im very scared, but its not a rational fear and im also scared of what could happen if i stay in this shitty life, so between the two fears, i might as well face the one thats inevitable anyway.

so ig (hopefully) this is goodbye to all of you here then, thanks to everyone for being so understanding towards me and everyone else in the same position. ill take time to reply to at least some messages before i leave. i hope each and every single one of you find peace as well.

fuck autism, fuck growing up trans, and fuck adult responsibility

 

[TheHolySword]

I'm so sorry that you suffered so much and that life led you here. I sincerely hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[zekeyaeger]

I wish you peace and freedom from pain

 

[foreverlanguish]

I wish you the best.

 

[ma0]

I hope that whatever happens, you can remain happy.

 

[pointblank]

Thank you as well for bringing your healing presence here

 

[FadingSnowFake]

May your fears disappear and may you find peace too, thank you and all the best

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the peace from suffering you search for.

 

[APeacefulPlace]

All the best, we'll be here regardless of what happens, may peace and luck be alongside you :)

 

[maniac116]

I'm sorry you're feeling so down. I hope your plan works but in all honesty don't think it will work.
As the C02 rises in your lungs your body will feel oxygen deprived & even if unconscious you'll probably still rip the bag off. I hope I'm wrong & that you get the results you're looking for

 

[outrider567]

couldnt get my friend to sell me any methadone, so instead im going to take a large dose of a sleep aid, then seal several layers of plastic over my face to suffocate myself and head to sleep forever around 11pm tomorrow. going to text my goodbye to my gf and my best friend immediately before starting, to minimize the chance theyll get the authorities to interrupt and put me in grippy sock jail.

im ngl, im very scared, but its not a rational fear and im also scared of what could happen if i stay in this shitty life, so between the two fears, i might as well face the one thats inevitable anyway.

so ig (hopefully) this is goodbye to all of you here then, thanks to everyone for being so understanding towards me and everyone else in the same position. ill take time to reply to at least some messages before i leave. i hope each and every single one of you find peace as well.

fuck autism, fuck growing up trans, and fuck adult responsibility

Won't work, no sleep aid in the world will keep you asleep, as your body will fight to protect itself as it senses a growing lack of oxygen, forcing you to relieve your suffocation by tearing off all the plastic bags, sleep aids are not anasthesia

I'm sorry you're feeling so down. I hope your plan works but in all honesty don't think it will work.
As the C02 rises in your lungs your body will feel oxygen deprived & even if unconscious you'll probably still rip the bag off. I hope I'm wrong & that you get the results you're looking for

You're not wrong about him ripping the bags off from lack of oxygen, but you can't do it while unconcious

 

[Anonymousa]

Whatever happens, I hope you can escape the pain of this world. Being autistic and trans is so difficult.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I hope you find peace, best of luck

 

[natthebrat]

update: i'm able to type this now at 4am, so obviously, as a few of you predicted, i didnt succeed… :( woke up to a terrible headache, and to my gf moving the bags out of the way so she could thank me for the stuffie i left in her bed last night. idk if i did in fact take the bags off instinctively and not remember it, or if the seal wasnt tight enough, but either way i need to find some way to obtain a life ending drug other than to try to bribe my pharmacist friend ig. only good thing is that i decided not to send any goodbye texts, so no psych hold at least. thanks everyone for all your kind messages yesterday, i appreciated hearing them.

another day of this shitty life it is… :( and even worse, it also happens to be that one day of the year my family wants to celebrate the beginning of my miserable existence…

 

[Anonymousa]

update: i'm able to type this now at 4am, so obviously, as a few of you predicted, i didnt succeed… :( woke up to a terrible headache, and to my gf moving the bags out of the way so she could thank me for the stuffie i left in her bed last night. idk if i did in fact take the bags off instinctively and not remember it, or if the seal wasnt tight enough, but either way i need to find some way to obtain a life ending drug other than to try to bribe my pharmacist friend ig. only good thing is that i decided not to send any goodbye texts, so no psych hold at least. thanks everyone for all your kind messages yesterday, i appreciated hearing them.

another day of this shitty life it is… :( and even worse, it also happens to be that one day of the year my family wants to celebrate the beginning of my miserable existence…

I am sorry your plan didn't work :< I assume its your birthday then? I hope you at least have an okay one and you can eventually find a way out of your suffering.