Long story short, drank only 2 small glasses of wine on my new medication which clearly you aren't supposed to do. Boyfriend got home and I started going into seizures (I have them anyway), but I was vomiting at the same time. He had to work really hard to stop my choking, gross but he had to hook vomit out of my mouth and he had a hard time getting me to respond, apparently I went a strange colour. I got better and stopped throwing up and having seizures but it got me thinking how easily I could have died if I was alone, how it would have looked a lot like an accident too. But it certainly wasn't peaceful, I don't have much awareness but I remember coming round from a seizure panicking.
He was very shaken up and is/was angry with me even though it wasn't intentional, it just really scared him and he thought I had OD'd or something. I feel so guilty and like I am the biggest burden in the world, I know he loves me but I keep thinking when will be the last straw for him?
He was very shaken up and is/was angry with me even though it wasn't intentional, it just really scared him and he thought I had OD'd or something. I feel so guilty and like I am the biggest burden in the world, I know he loves me but I keep thinking when will be the last straw for him?
we've been together for 11 years, so he must love me. I just feel like I cause him a lot of stress and don't give much back these days, I feel a lot of guilt. But he was amazing at taking care of me and I made sure he knows I am grateful.
