I can't wait to CTB so...

[WorthlessTrash]

I no longer have to hear the sound of my voice
I no longer have to deal with annoying body hair
I no longer have to see my ugly body
I no longer have to see my gut
I no longer have to see my crooked and wretched teeth
I no longer feel dysphoric when I see (attractive) people of the opposite sex
I no longer feel dysphoric when women talk about brushing their hair, make up and array of style
I no longer feel dysphoric when i see women out in public
I no longer feel dysphoric when i listen to my favorite music
I no longer have to feel gross when i think a woman is attractive
I no longer feel unworthy when i think a woman is attractive
I no longer have to deal with this sickening feeling of jealousy of them
I no longer have to deal with all of this self hate
I no longer have to get suggestions on how to fight my dysphoria when the results will just add body dysphoria on top of everything else

SN may taste salty, but the escape from this awful body and awful life will be that much sweeter.

Parting isn't such sweet sorrow. It's just plain sweet!

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is so painful. I'm sorry that you have suffered so much in life. I understand that it is hard to carry on when you are so desperate to leave. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[lofticries]

I'm sorry you're going through all this.

Although my appearance isn't the main reason I wanna ctb I do know what it's like to feel uncomfortable about it and even hate it at times.

Since mine (my height) has been the main ingredient for my social anxiety all my life.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I'm sorry you're going through all this.

Although my appearance isn't the main reason I wanna ctb I do know what it's like to feel uncomfortable about it and even hate it at times.

Since mine (my height) has been the main ingredient for my social anxiety all my life.

I am looking forward to no longer being consumed by dysphoria, by jealousy and by looking inferior to the opposite sex. I can't wait to just get this over with.

 

[rationaltake]

Snap. Why can't I go??

 

[September5th]

I can't wait to ctb so my ex won't hurt me (the thought of loosing her, what we both did afterwards, what could've been)
I can't wait to ctb so my college won't torture me on a daily basis
I can't wait to ctb so my family won't be sad while trying to help me
I can't wait to ctb so I no longer have to worry about money and jobs, so society won't fuck with my health ever again, so I can stop feeling pain at all times and anxiety when I wake up.
I just hate life.

Wow, that's liberating. Everyone should scream this all to the world. Yeah, FUCK LIFE! FUCK MYSELF FOR RUINING EVERYTHING IN SO LITTLE TIME! FUCK ME!
Holy shit, why did our parents decide to bring us to this hell??? Fuck that.

 

[Lebensunwertes]

Do you also get repulsed at the sight of male k-pop performers?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Do you also get repulsed at the sight of male k-pop performers?

As long as their bodies aren't showing, not really. I don't really listen or watch them anyways, tbf.

 

[Beer_is_all_I_have]

Throughout my teens and into my 20s I was convinced I was the most hideous creature on this planet. I hid my face as best I could, avoided social settings, buried myself in work. Eventually people appreciated my skills and I gained some confidence. Finally I went out after work and though considered extremely shy, I bonded with a few humans. A member of the opposite sex actually fell for me, thinking my shyness was cute. I learned not to be incredibly self-conscious and was able to not constantly put myself down. Like another thread said, I cared much less about what others thought of me as I got older.

Hoping you can get through this very painful part of life. I never thought I would

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Throughout my teens and into my 20s I was convinced I was the most hideous creature on this planet. I hid my face as best I could, avoided social settings, buried myself in work. Eventually people appreciated my skills and I gained some confidence. Finally I went out after work and though considered extremely shy, I bonded with a few humans. A member of the opposite sex actually fell for me, thinking my shyness was cute. I learned not to be incredibly self-conscious and was able to not constantly put myself down. Like another thread said, I cared much less about what others thought of me as I got older.

Hoping you can get through this very painful part of life. I never thought I would

Well, my mind is already made up about CTBing. There is no getting through it for me. I am not willing to live as an AMAB, and I definitely don't want to live to grow old, so that's another reason for me to CTB.

Thanks, though. I am glad you made it through it.

 

[Lebensunwertes]

As long as their bodies aren't showing, not really. I don't really listen or watch them anyways, tbf.

How do you feel about women that aren't pop dancer tier, talking about average/below average.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

How do you feel about women that aren't pop dancer tier, talking about average/below average.

Envious of, also. Debating average/below average women vs pop tier is not going to cure my dysphoria. I don't need to be "bombshell model" looking to be happy. I just need to be relatively attractive.

 

[Lebensunwertes]

Envious of, also. Debating average/below average women vs pop tier is not going to cure my dysphoria. I don't need to be "bombshell model" looking to be happy. I just need to be relatively attractive.

Would you accept getting old as an attractive woman or would it still mean suicide as soon as looks begin to fade?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Would you accept getting old as an attractive woman or would it still mean suicide as soon as looks begin to fade?

I'd still CTB, just as I got older. At least I would have been happy and not dysphoric in my young life.