I can’t vent like Normal People

[Water-Lily]

One of my friends vented about a personal situation

Everyone was receptive and open. Even when the topic was about family

But my proms are too intensive

I can't have those conversations

My severe trauma and mental health issues isolate me in a way in which me choosing to speak makes people uncomfortable

They get frustrated

They tell me I talk to fast

They tell me to repeat myself

And then the "that sucks sorry" or "we can't help you"

So now, I don't give a fuck if people tell me to say how I feel

I will keep my mouth shut

Because I'm too much

I don't care if it causes me to implode on myself

That's what people want me to do by way of shutting up

I'm giving them what they want

 

[F@#$]

I get you. People always get all defensive/scared when I try to express myself or explain anything. So fuck'em is what I've learned.

 

[golta]

People call it empathy this which really scares me. We have the right to choose the valid feeling of someone?