My dad is a horrible person, he never loved me and anyone. I wish mom and dad would divorce but mom has nowhere to go.
So my dad was always treating my mom very poorly and until around 18 I'd been thinking it was normal, and started copying my dad.
Later I realized it's not okay and that I should change my attitude towards her, and I don't know why, but I just can't. I feel nothing towards all of my family members like they're just some roommates.
I don't what's wrong with me, I understand that how I treat my mom is very bad and I wish I could change but something just doesn't let me do it. I hate myself for this and I hate my dad for everything he's done. I don't kniw what to do with myself and that's one of the reasons I want to CTB.
Mom always loved me, she sees that something is wrong with me because all I do now is play games all day and go to work, I used to be more active, and I just can't open up to her because it would break her heart.
In 2025 my life was not good but I was more optimistic, and in 2026 I hate everyday I wake up, I stopped making plans, caring for myself.
So my dad was always treating my mom very poorly and until around 18 I'd been thinking it was normal, and started copying my dad.
Later I realized it's not okay and that I should change my attitude towards her, and I don't know why, but I just can't. I feel nothing towards all of my family members like they're just some roommates.
I don't what's wrong with me, I understand that how I treat my mom is very bad and I wish I could change but something just doesn't let me do it. I hate myself for this and I hate my dad for everything he's done. I don't kniw what to do with myself and that's one of the reasons I want to CTB.
Mom always loved me, she sees that something is wrong with me because all I do now is play games all day and go to work, I used to be more active, and I just can't open up to her because it would break her heart.
In 2025 my life was not good but I was more optimistic, and in 2026 I hate everyday I wake up, I stopped making plans, caring for myself.
