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Butterfly-death

Butterfly-death

Just let me die already all I do is suffer
Apr 5, 2024
44
My heart aches. I'm so tired. I'm worthless and pathetic. I'm so mentally ill. I know I'm a bad person because I verabally snap at others and have an addiction to stealing (if hell is real that's where I'm going even though this already feels like hell). It's funny because I cant kill myself but it would be better for everyone if I did. I hate this society and I hate myself. I just hate being alive. I'm always depressed. Always angry. Always hurting. But maybe I deserve to suffer? The tears won't stop. There is no enjoyment in being alive. I feel so horrible. I'm the biggest mistake why did my parents have to have me now I'm going to suffer until I die. I hate this I hate it I hate it. I hate myself. I hate existing. Make it stop. I feel so horrible. I want death to take me out of here please it's for the best. I'm horrible and life is horrible. It's hurts so much emotionally. I don't even want to participate in society I didn't want to be born at all. I wish my heart would just stop beating right now please
 
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DISAppearr

DISAppearr

Member
Feb 16, 2026
17
Hey there!!! I feel the same. I hate being forced into existence. And then am still frowned upon for wanting to disappear. Such hypocrisy!!!
I would like to talk to u friend. Maybe u will feel a little organized in ur thoughts. What has been bothering u in life?
 
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Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
800
I feel the same way. My only desire has always been death
 
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scentoflavender

scentoflavender

sleepy
Mar 16, 2026
29
ive felt the same way for years. i wish i could just make it stop i wish it wasnt so hard
 
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Mgelanie

Mgelanie

Member
Mar 17, 2026
12
My heart aches. I'm so tired. I'm worthless and pathetic. I'm so mentally ill. I know I'm a bad person because I verabally snap at others and have an addiction to stealing (if hell is real that's where I'm going even though this already feels like hell). It's funny because I cant kill myself but it would be better for everyone if I did. I hate this society and I hate myself. I just hate being alive. I'm always depressed. Always angry. Always hurting. But maybe I deserve to suffer? The tears won't stop. There is no enjoyment in being alive. I feel so horrible. I'm the biggest mistake why did my parents have to have me now I'm going to suffer until I die. I hate this I hate it I hate it. I hate myself. I hate existing. Make it stop. I feel so horrible. I want death to take me out of here please it's for the best. I'm horrible and life is horrible. It's hurts so much emotionally. I don't even want to participate in society I didn't want to be born at all. I wish my heart would just stop beating right now please
You don't deserve to suffer ā˜¹ļø
 
K

kk13

Student
Feb 2, 2026
111
My heart aches. I'm so tired. I'm worthless and pathetic. I'm so mentally ill. I know I'm a bad person because I verabally snap at others and have an addiction to stealing (if hell is real that's where I'm going even though this already feels like hell). It's funny because I cant kill myself but it would be better for everyone if I did. I hate this society and I hate myself. I just hate being alive. I'm always depressed. Always angry. Always hurting. But maybe I deserve to suffer? The tears won't stop. There is no enjoyment in being alive. I feel so horrible. I'm the biggest mistake why did my parents have to have me now I'm going to suffer until I die. I hate this I hate it I hate it. I hate myself. I hate existing. Make it stop. I feel so horrible. I want death to take me out of here please it's for the best. I'm horrible and life is horrible. It's hurts so much emotionally. I don't even want to participate in society I didn't want to be born at all. I wish my heart would just stop beating right now please
I feel the same. My heart hurts so much. It feels like someone has stabbed me over and over until i became numb to it
 

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