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urgent

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Dec 6, 2025
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I just can't live in this pain I need it to stop I wish I could find a way now the pain is so brutal
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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Sep 10, 2025
384
Hang in there..... Life sucks sometimes
 
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urgent

Student
Dec 6, 2025
136
Hang in there..... Life sucks sometimes
Thanks but I'm in so much pain everyday I really wish I could just end it. I really should be allowed to have medical aid in dying but I'm to sick to keep going to doctors. I just want a Dr Kevorkian.
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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Sep 10, 2025
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Thanks but I'm in so much pain everyday I really wish I could just end it. I really should be allowed to have medical aid in dying but I'm to sick to keep going to doctors. I just want a Dr Kevorkian.
I'm with you buddy....are you in physical pain? Mental pain? Both?
 
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urgent

Student
Dec 6, 2025
136
Both but the physical pain is so bad it makes the mental pain worse.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,387
I understand, existing truly is so torturous and dreadful, it's just so terrible and cruel how there's all this suffering and torture in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I hope you find the freedom you are searching for.
 
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UnoX48

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Jan 6, 2026
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I also suffer intensely from chronic pain. I am 41 years old and have been suffering since I was 29. The doctors do nothing. I'm at my wit's end. My rope has been installed for 1 month (FSH). I regularly test the device to target the arteries and not the trachea. It's a matter of days or weeks. Hang in there, man.
 
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sulk

if beauty is in the inside i wanna see my bones
Sep 30, 2023
102
I just can't live in this pain I need it to stop I wish I could find a way now the pain is so brutal
I know how you feel. It seems like living is more painful than dying. I wish there was an easy way out, but hang in there
 
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urgent

Student
Dec 6, 2025
136
I also suffer intensely from chronic pain. I am 41 years old and have been suffering since I was 29. The doctors do nothing. I'm at my wit's end. My rope has been installed for 1 month (FSH). I regularly test the device to target the arteries and not the trachea. It's a matter of days or weeks. Hang in there, man.
I'm sorry I wish I had way too. I'm suffering so badly I can't do anything myself anymore
I know how you feel. It seems like living is more painful than dying. I wish there was an easy way out, but hang in there
It is much more painful I really didn't know how extremely painful it could be
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,256
I'm sorry I wish I had way too. I'm suffering so badly I can't do anything myself anymore

It is much more painful I really didn't know how extremely painful it could be
imo most people don't know how bad pain can get
 
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urgent

Student
Dec 6, 2025
136
It's so bad I'm begging to die why can't I find a way
 
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rabbitjack

Member
Dec 6, 2025
64
It's so bad I'm begging to die why can't I find a way
This may be a bad suggestion, but judging from your desperation, you can try opioids---they may be a better attempt than suicide. Opioids are known to remove pain perception.
 

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