Good night
Kuolema tulee~~
- Jan 18, 2026
- 28
God, this pain is killing me. The worst part is that yesterday was my birthday, and I had to spend most of it in bed.
I'm in another country, I'll be back home soon, but I can't take it anymore. I have tremendous pain in my bladder that radiates to my lower back, and it's difficult to urinate. I also have some blood when I pee. I went to the doctor the day before my trip, and they told me I had a urinary tract infection, but that I had to bring a sample the next day for testing. I didn't bring it because I forgot, and I had already weighed myself, and I had to catch a plane.
Big mistake. This damn pain is killing me. I can't take it anymore. The worst part is that I don't have my antipsychotics with me. My mother only brought me lorazepam. I wanted to take the whole box and knock myself out, but I couldn't find it, so I only asked for five pills, but I can't sleep because of this damn pain. God, I want to die.
I'm in another country, I'll be back home soon, but I can't take it anymore. I have tremendous pain in my bladder that radiates to my lower back, and it's difficult to urinate. I also have some blood when I pee. I went to the doctor the day before my trip, and they told me I had a urinary tract infection, but that I had to bring a sample the next day for testing. I didn't bring it because I forgot, and I had already weighed myself, and I had to catch a plane.
Big mistake. This damn pain is killing me. I can't take it anymore. The worst part is that I don't have my antipsychotics with me. My mother only brought me lorazepam. I wanted to take the whole box and knock myself out, but I couldn't find it, so I only asked for five pills, but I can't sleep because of this damn pain. God, I want to die.
