Some place nice
This world makes me sick
- Oct 18, 2023
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He was probably just tired after work or was out with friends. He could've been busy with some chick or he has had enough of me. Whatever the reason is I still love him. Even if he doesn't see me as a friend I still do. It hurts so bad... I just want to tell him but, I know he doesn't feel the same way. He thinks anyone who says that he's hot is just messed up in the brain and Ya'know what, I am fucking crazy but that doesn't change my feelings for him. He is so much more than his looks anyway. He is everything I want in a partner. He is so understanding, nice, and he makes sure to remind me that I can say no. I have only one clip of his voice bc we live in different parts of the world and I melt when I hear his voice. I love him with all my being and yet he ignored my text. I wonder if he's tired of me. There are other people willing to share photos that I can't. I hope he texts me tonight. I stay up and wait for his texts. Its usually 2 am for me when he gets off work and we text till 4 am for me 9 pm for him. He freaked out when he heard what time it was for me, it was funny. I wish I had the strength to tell him how I feel before my date. It would be nice to see what he says but, I don't have that strength. I keep thinking that he's not ever gonna text back and it hurts. I have really bad abandonment issues and paranoia. I just hope for the best. I want to get to know him a little bit and maybe get him to send me a goodnight audio for when I ctb. I want his voice too be the last person I hear before I start my music.
