i cant stop getting high

[puppybrained]

i have such intense feelings. i dont know how to deal with them other than taking pills. i wouldnt care so much but it really puts the people around me off. it makes my friends worry and it grosses my boyfriend out. i feel so bad, but i still did it again tonight. i just hate being sober.
do you cope with drugs? does it make you feel guilty? do you hide it from others?

 

[Cress]

I used to not really understand how people could abuse drugs, until my cousin jumped in front of a train and took his own life then I kind of understood why people pumped themselves full of heroin to deal with the pain. I have Abused a lot of tramadol for a while. Although I don't know if I maybe don't have an addictive personality but I haven't really cared for it recently even with the high amounts that I was taking.

 

[Nephy]

I'm high since some weeks .. I just don't want to feel anything anymore

 

[puppybrained]

I used to not really understand how people could abuse drugs, until my cousin jumped in front of a train and took his own life then I kind of understood why people pumped themselves full of heroin to deal with the pain. I have Abused a lot of tramadol for a while. Although I don't know if I maybe don't have an addictive personality but I haven't really cared for it recently even with the high amounts that I was taking.

i go through phases. for awhile i didn't care about getting high at all. it just didn't interest me. but i've been so numb for months now, i'm desperate to feel good for once. nothing is enough, so i turn to chemicals.