I can't stop crying I'm trapped in this world

[NothingElseMatters]

as I said before, I can't even fucking kill myself, I've tried and just panicked, suicide is not for me, but still I don't want to endure this life anymore. maybe my fate is to live a sad life till the day God decides to let me out.

 

[Miss_Takes]

I feel for you on this day when we are, so many, struggling with the same feelings. We are never alone in our loneliness ... sadly.

Last year I started crying and thought it would never stop ... it has eased but not stopped and I have adapted to what is manageable tearfulness and stuff the rest down lol ... mostly because the act of crying is so exhausting in itself and eventually sleep wins for me but also because I can still laugh ... still smile ... still be, here, in this world.

I hope solace finds you if only for relief from the constancy of sadness for a brief time.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering so much, living really is painful. It is hard to take our lives, for me it is because of the SI, us humans are programmed to live and the fact that I could fail a method. I understand it is like being trapped where you do not want to live but feel as though you cannot leave this world. I would love just to fall into an eternal sleep and be free from this existence. I do not want to live for many more decades longer.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

Maybe you're not exactly ready? I mean, maybe there will come a day, when you're able to kill yourself, to overcome your SI? Nevertheless, I'm really sorry you're in so much pain. I know want if feels like to feel trapped. I hope things will change for you for better, one way or another.

 

[The Lonely]

Be nice to yourself for a couple of days…

Think about nice things and relax a little…

 

[eduardo]

it is clear that you have a heavy depression. I hope , you can achieve your peace and gladness again.

 

[Stuckaf2]

as I said before, I can't even fucking kill myself, I've tried and just panicked, suicide is not for me, but still I don't want to endure this life anymore. maybe my fate is to live a sad life till the day God decides to let me out.

I feel this way often... like even when I am "happy" I always fucking wish I could just die and disappear

 

[S like Siren]

I have the same feelings as you, I feel desperately trapped:(

 

[MBY85]

I am trapped too. I am very disabled and can't ctb for myself and nobody would help me to do it. I am always sad and hate life but I can't have the option to go away. So I understand how desesperate it is to stay here in life being unhappy

 

[Maaizr]

I am trapped too. I am very disabled and can't ctb for myself and nobody would help me to do it. I am always sad and hate life but I can't have the option to go away. So I understand how desesperate it is to stay here in life being unhappy

goddamn this hurts im really sorry i hope you can find peace or things change for the better, friend

 

[Cid9121]

I understand completely. I feel I'm trying so hard & yet each day brings a new struggle, it never seems to get easier.

 

[Fakereality]

There are many prisoner's in this world you are not alone many among us victim's of this world cruelness being forced into existence in this wretched rigged game no merciful god or a force of nature will ever create a world like this it's a curse not a blessing there's no beauty in this depressing hell they called life only suffering and sadness.

 

[mossyfox]

I feel this way often... like even when I am "happy" I always fucking wish I could just die and disappear

relate so hard. life's a bitch and a half. why the fuck are we here. some of us really don't need to be, and people make that really fucking clear.

if only life made sense and people who wanted to live and were useful in this world were spared tragic deaths and instead those deaths came our way naturally, and we don't have to do it ourselves.

 

[victoria91]

Sorry your feeling that way. I am the same. Feel trapped. Too frightened to CTB and feel guilty anyway as I have children.

Pretend to feel happy everyday , no one has any idea how much I hate life .

 

[NormaJeane]

as I said before, I can't even fucking kill myself, I've tried and just panicked, suicide is not for me, but still I don't want to endure this life anymore. maybe my fate is to live a sad life till the day God decides to let me out.

It is the survival instinct that is keeping us alive, otherwise we would all be dead.

 

[enau]

im sorry, hope you will find something that confortimg you, for now even in this unhappiness

 

[Tav]

I am trapped too. I am very disabled and can't ctb for myself and nobody would help me to do it. I am always sad and hate life but I can't have the option to go away. So I understand how desesperate it is to stay here in life being unhappy

that sounds terrible,,,...there is this concept device which allows a peaceful death with nitrogen with voice or eye movement control https://www.exitinternational.net/sarco/