Venting I cant really be happy n

[Sammystink]

Today's been weird. For most of the day I felt amazing, better than I ever have, I was excited generally energetic, and was being very open.. I feel more neutral now, but I've been trying to force myself to feel worse for like an hour now.
I was talking to my friend about how good I felt, and she mentioned something about not wanting me to kill myself, and I responded saying "ok bro" and she went to bed right after. I can't lie it didn't really hit my mood at all, I still felt amazing. My boyfriend started to panic when I had the big lift in positivity, and he thought something was wrong with me..
I don't know I feel like I'm insane, Im more neutral now if anything I don't even feel bad..
Does being happy just hurt the people around me?
They don't respect my ideas to cbt either.. I don't know what to think.. I need to think. Im ok with whatever happens tomorrow, If I still feel amazing that would be great, but I don't really want to hurt the people I care about anymore. Maybe Isolating is a good idea!

Ok this is a stupid rant, but I just thought I needed to post this lol

 

[Shiitake]

Isolating is never good, and people will never be opened to the idea of you ctb, cause they like you,
this whole "ok bro" could be viewed as you not caring about your own faith.