I find it incredibly frustrating that my first reaction to an argument is going nonverbal and crying. I get told that my reaction is unfair, they should not be the one comforting me when I'm the one that destroyed everything and is not doing enough to repair trust and fixing things.
i should be patient. I should be apologetic and understanding. I should be humble and accept I'm in the wrong and word that out loud. Say I'm sorry for all the things I've done. Sorry that they even feel the need to distrust me and think ill of me. Instead all that I just start crying and I'm unable to say anything.
I'm fucking sick of being like this. Being me. Being broken.
i should be patient. I should be apologetic and understanding. I should be humble and accept I'm in the wrong and word that out loud. Say I'm sorry for all the things I've done. Sorry that they even feel the need to distrust me and think ill of me. Instead all that I just start crying and I'm unable to say anything.
I'm fucking sick of being like this. Being me. Being broken.
