nowhere123
Member
- May 8, 2026
- 19
but I still want to end it all. I really am a selfish person.
I have a family that I cannot change and for which I find it hard to see a future. I never thought about what the future would be like before, but graduation has forced me to face it all, and I soon fell ill. I am truly too tired, so tired that I don't want to care about how much sorrow my death would bring to those around me. I understand very well that after I die, my family—especially my mother—will have their lives ruined. Because of superstition, she would likely be seen as someone who brings disaster, having an autistic son and then a daughter who committed suicide; she would likely spend the rest of her life in regret and grief. Even so, I still want to die.
I have a family that I cannot change and for which I find it hard to see a future. I never thought about what the future would be like before, but graduation has forced me to face it all, and I soon fell ill. I am truly too tired, so tired that I don't want to care about how much sorrow my death would bring to those around me. I understand very well that after I die, my family—especially my mother—will have their lives ruined. Because of superstition, she would likely be seen as someone who brings disaster, having an autistic son and then a daughter who committed suicide; she would likely spend the rest of her life in regret and grief. Even so, I still want to die.