Venting i cant fkn escape

[cristaleyez]

i've been vagued and mocked on social media by ex-friends over a delusion i cnt control over and over and Im feeling fucking stupid that i cant just magically presto it away becuz thats what they expect
its freaking me out. cuz this delusion doesn't upset me inherently. basically im engaged 2 a fictional character. it makes me happy 2 finally have someone. but I've had a whole psa about me posted now like im a criminal on the run. i cant stop feeling eyes on me EVERYWHERE and its scary and i just wanna die now because it'll stop the delusion now but i know it would be impuslvie and not a definite decision that i put thought n consideration into
sometimes i wanna live like im excited for college n i love my partner
but im being treated like im insan and i cant deal with it i wis i didn't have this stupid illness it would just go away but it doesn't happen

 

[Kusogaki]

fair point, but i don't see why you just ignore them. They don't matter.

 

[cristaleyez]

fair point, but i don't see why you just ignore them. They don't matter.

yr right. i should. i dont have any more friends so i just need some hobbies lol

 

[Kusogaki]

yr right. i should. i dont have any more friends so i just need some hobbies lol

Great start. I recommend drawing or maybe a musical instrument
also we could be friends, possibly.

 

[cristaleyez]

Great start. I recommend drawing or maybe a musical instrument
also we could be friends, possibly.

I do love to draw actually. I could spend more time on that.
And I'd love to be your friend. I just need awhile to gain trust in people again.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

This is why you keep your waifu secret, man

 

[Kusogaki]

I do love to draw actually. I could spend more time on that.
And I'd love to be your friend. I just need awhile to gain trust in people again.

understandable! i also am quite the drawer. here is my latesti\ ignore there are no hands this a commission for half a vtuber model

 

[leaf23]

i've been vagued and mocked on social media by ex-friends over a delusion i cnt control over and over and Im feeling fucking stupid that i cant just magically presto it away becuz thats what they expect
its freaking me out. cuz this delusion doesn't upset me inherently. basically im engaged 2 a fictional character. it makes me happy 2 finally have someone. but I've had a whole psa about me posted now like im a criminal on the run. i cant stop feeling eyes on me EVERYWHERE and its scary and i just wanna die now because it'll stop the delusion now but i know it would be impuslvie and not a definite decision that i put thought n consideration into
sometimes i wanna live like im excited for college n i love my partner
but im being treated like im insan and i cant deal with it i wis i didn't have this stupid illness it would just go away but it doesn't happen

Do you and them move in the same social circles? Like, are you in the same university? If possible, I'd suggest removing yourself or distancing yourself from them, like removing them from your socmed feeds.

It's sad, but most times, we can't change what other people think or feel, we can only really control what we ourselves think.

As they're ex-friends, it's possible to think that you won't forever have to associate with them. After university it's even possible never to see or hear from them again.

I'm really sorry you have to deal with this and suffering because of their insensitive gossip.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is so horrible how insensitive and cruel humans create so much harm in this world, I think that it's true that humans are responsible for so much of the suffering that sadly exists here.