Venting i can’t even ctb i’m pathetic

[Decayed]

i'm so pathetic i can't even ctb without making a fuss, everything was perfect for my attempt and then my dad had to go on a business trip leaving my mum alone with me, i didn't wanna be an asshole and make her deal with my death alone so i'm calling it off. the only problem is now i feel so fucking pathetic for not just killing myself anyway and i lowkey wanna die even more.

 

[letmejoindeath]

I should have offed myself years ago so my shitty dna would never be passed to another human.

You should wait until your mom has someone to comfort her.

 

[ColdPhoenix]

You shouldn't feel pathetic for that. CTB requires a lot of confidence and it should only happen when the time is right. When you've come to peace with the world around you and there's nothing left. Continue to be patient and only make that consideration when you've come to that sort of peace.

 

[zeek]

it should only happen when the time is right.

 

[FuneralCry]

I get that it's dreadful feeling stuck in this existence when you just wish to be free. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Forever Sleep]

That doesn't sound pathetic. It sounds considerate and caring. I can understand the frustration though.