Venting i can't do this

[batmanreal]

existing is so hard. just being awake is so painful, existence is such an awful chore. i'm so tired, my job is so draining and makes me even more depressed. the free time that i do have is spent sulking in bed, punching myself, cutting myself, or slamming my head against some metal. there's nothing to do. there's no one to talk to, i can't have people in my life because people bring me so much pain. they'll all leave anyway. i don't matter that much to anyone and i'm tired of it. i'm tired of never being the first option, i'm tired of being replaced.
there's nothing eventful happening in my life, but it's still so exhausting. i just can't handle this.

 

[Kari0499]

My life has been that way for years. Literally no one cares. It's mind numbing, how non-challant they are.

 

[kitkat9234]

Same for me Groundhog Day but keeps getting worse. Trapped in the prison thst is my mind. It's just me myself and I. Going crazy like I'm in solitary confinement. I fucking hate this.

 

[unluckysadness]

Same for me Groundhog Day but keeps getting worse. Trapped in the prison thst is my mind. It's just me myself and I. Going crazy like I'm in solitary confinement. I fucking hate this

Exactly the same. I'm my worst enemy.