Venting I can’t do this anymore

[T^T]

Every fucking day it's the same thing. Wake up, do nothing all day, cut myself and then go to bed. I'm so tired of it. I want to be able to peacefully go to bed and not wake up. Yes a shotgun would end all my issues but that's not what I want at this point. A gun is my last resort if I don't kill myself on the 4th. My main plan is to just take a ton of what ever medication I have in my house, get blackout drunk and die. If that doesn't work than I'm going to blow my fucking brains out.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I just want to never wake ever again as well, all I want is to be permanently free from this cruel, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[TBONTB]

Sorry you are suffering this way.

I don't know what "everything in the house is". Since you have some time between now and the forth can you learn more about what you have available and if it's going to do the job for you? If you just become will will someone find you, and potentially admit you to a ward or some sort?