Venting I can't do anything.

[JUST PAIN]

如有语法错误，请见谅。因为英语不是我的第一语言。

我恨我自己。因为我什么都做不了。我能做的就是像老鼠一样逃跑。Or blame the heavens and others.

My memory has declined too much, and I even forgot what I was about to say!I have simply let down everyone's expectations, whether it's my mother, friends, or teachers.I can't do anything well and I want to cry. But I can't even cry.

我活得好，失败得好。我忘了我试过多少次CTB。妈妈对我很失望。她认为我没救了，是吗？idk。

I don't know what is supporting me to survive now.Only pain can make me feel alive.I don't even know what I'm talking about. I really want to sleep.Maybe I shouldn't OD anymore

 

[LittleNelson]

I'm so sorry your going though this pain. I hope you can get some rest soon.

 

[bun]

you do not deserve to go through this pain, you do not have to push yourself to meet anyone's expectations, care for yourself before anything

 

[JUST PAIN]

我很抱歉让你经历这些痛苦。我希望你能早点休息。

thanks(T^T)

你不应该经历这种痛苦，你不必强迫自己去满足任何人的期望，在做任何事情之前先照顾好自己

I don't know what to say, but thank you anyway!! I will do my best to do it……