I can't cope

[Sister of the Moon]

My anxiety is off the scale. I don't know how I can go on feeling like this. Every time I get comfortable and think things are improving the rug gets pulled from under me.
I'm having relationship problems. I just can't see any future for myself. I am dead already but expected to carry on. I have to carry on, I would never hurt those who love me and depend on me.
But everyone has no problem hurting me. Tormenting me, pushing me over the edge.
I'm not even anywhere near close to catching the bus. Yet I just can't go on. Somebody please take this emotional pain away.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

Sending you love and kindness

 

[LONE WOLF.]

I wish l could take your pain away! I've lived alongside pain for decades and a bit more wouldn't make any difference! I hope You feel better soon @Sad Eyes Again

 

[Callie Arcale]

My anxiety is destroying my life.
I hear you :-(

I cried and begged and bargained with the universe to take my anxiety away. But no one is answering. I am alone with this burden and it is mine to carry till the end of my life.

Sending you hugs and compasion @Sad Eyes Again

 

[callme]

I saw it, you admit you have yet to live. Please, I know you can push past pain yet again, so hold on in there. My wishes are that you have a pshycail and emotional boost of energy and content soon enough.

 

[cececo]

I hope you can find reprieve in sleep or some other manner soon. It's really the worst when you're being destroyed from the inside constantly.

 

[dustyfurcollector]

As someone who still feels pain that she's made of lesser things than others, it hurts. I'm sorry you feel pain. I wish I could take it away from you, but somehow I'd make a mess of that. I hope you can find a comfortable refuge until this pain dims for you. Don't let that pain make you ctb until you're ready.

 

[Midgardsorm]

Your resolve to live for the one you love is incredible.

Pardon those who would ask how can you have such an unshakable will, for they cannot see beyond, how much you struggle to keep standing up everyday.

I pray that salvation is just around the corner for you. Such kind soul deserves peace and prosperity.

I wish you the best.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are going through this. I can imagine it must be unbearable. I know that having anxiety and dread for the future can be awful. I understand that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Sister of the Moon]

Thank you all for your kind and sincere words. You are all such beautiful souls.

My heart is so broken. I don't know how I'll get through this, but I have to. My boyfriend has crossed the line. He has been emotionally abusive and he intends to be with someone else. In fairness, he too does not want to live, he talks a lot about dying, and he actually is dying, he is an alcoholic. He confided in me that he doesn't want to live, and I told him I understand that.

It's all one big mess. On the one hand I can't stand missing his warmth, his cuddles, his love. On the other hand, nobody deserves to be treated how he treats me when he gets nasty.

He is 52. I will be 49 tomorrow. He promised me the rest of our lives. He's content to drink himself to death, and here I am all alone again. Like a cornered rat. I feel like I could die of a broken heart, but that's wishful thinking.