Venting I can’t believe this is it

[lavenderlilylies]

Life is ironic, frustrating, and depressing. I can't even single myself out when addressing how I feel, most people are as insignificant as me. I'm living a painful, pointless existence and it doesn't matter, because I never mattered in the grand scheme of things. How can such powerful emotions as those that haunt me, have absolutely no impact on anything, ever?

I keep asking myself, so this is it? This is the life I'm tormented living? As opposed to nothingness, this is what I pay the price of my own suffering to experience? I was conceived, brought into existence, literally grown cell by cell in my mother's womb, just to be born, live a sad life and then die? This is ridiculous

 

[kunikuzushi]

It's truly ridiculous. So much effort for nothing. So much pain existing, just for it to end. It's so unnecessary, and I don't understand how people can not only accept this, but bring more humans into this pointless existence.

 

[unluckysadness]

I feel you. So much effort for me too, and I lost everything. I know it's not worth anymore but I'm like a zombie who is prisoner of SI, just here for suffering and waiting to pass away

 

[lavenderlilylies]

I feel you. So much effort for me too, and I lost everything. I know it's not worth anymore but I'm like a zombie who is prisoner of SI, just here for suffering and waiting to pass away

Yeah, that's exactly where I'm at too. Not wanting to live yet unable to ctb

 

[Galam]

What I learned in life is, you must have money (rich parents or some skill that others would support) and you must be cruel and a little dumb/unaware about your cruelty (aka manipulative).

The people who are seen as normal and good functioning humans, breed the most, get the most support and are seen as healthy while women like me are pushed downwards and used as pigs so they gain money out of us. This is the society poor females with disability are born into. There is no love.

I am always alone since 30 years, people who have it better laugh about me. They don't care that I am lonely and have nobody who would help me. They bullied me for poverty, ugliness/disability, zero friends and no supporting parents. My father abandoned the family he created. He should never be allowed to make children because he is disabled and alcohol addict. Because of such men, and a society who generated money from disabled and poor people, such children suffer.

 

[lavenderlilylies]

What I learned in life is, you must have money (rich parents or some skill that others would support) and you must be cruel and a little dumb/unaware about your cruelty (aka manipulative).

The people who are seen as normal and good functioning humans, breed the most, get the most support and are seen as healthy while women like me are pushed downwards and used as pigs so they gain money out of us. This is the society poor females with disability are born into. There is no love.

I am always alone since 30 years, people who have it better laugh about me. They don't care that I am lonely and have nobody who would help me. They bullied me for poverty, ugliness/disability, zero friends and no supporting parents. My father abandoned the family he created. He should never be allowed to make children because he is disabled and alcohol addict. Because of such men, and a society who generated money from disabled and poor people, such children suffer.

I'm very sorry that you're in pain. I can't wrap my head around the fact that some people live a life of absolute misery while others just get everything. This world is so unfair it breaks my brain. Somehow religious people think whatever entity is behind this is benevolent. How can anything good be responsible for such cruelty

 

[58Alice85]

Things make perfect sense to me. Overwhelming majority of people loves lying, evil, torment, etc.
People are stuck in the same world as other people.
Everyone becomes miserable

 

[Unknown21]

It's a very cruel joke, I can't believe this is the only life I got

 

[lavenderlilylies]

Things make perfect sense to me. Overwhelming majority of people loves lying, evil, torment, etc.
People are stuck in the same world as other people.
Everyone becomes miserable

i agree, everyone is miserable, to an extent. But to me it seems disproportionate, you can't compare the misery of an upper class person in a first world country with that of a child born into a war zone, for example. None of them inherently deserve it, it's unfair either way, but it's not comparable.