Personally, I am not an extremist. Maybe my most extreme position measured on a scale might be my stance in favor of pro-choice. But even in this forum I am on the spectrum more of a centrist. But without a doubt most people in society would consider me morally a monster for being a longterm member on Sanctioned Suicide.
I have experienced so much fucking abuse in my life. But if I became an extremist on any issue I would simply repeat the mistakes other people did to me. The lesson of abuse is to become more aware of injustice and to get sensitized for it. Maybe developing mechanisms to avoid future abuse. I have some and they are very draining. But hell it worked. to prevent even worse...
After my recent experience with my therapist I can see why people are demonizing therapy. And actually I think demonizing therapy is really not good. And I am a pretty a bad role model for posting about this. But this is actually what just happened to me 4 weeks ago. This is real. This is my fucking reality. I think it is good to encourage people from Sanctioned Suicide to try therapy before committing suicide. This community is too critical of therapy. I always emphasized that. Because it is a final and irreversible step. But I was at my lowest and she kicked me for it. She exploited my vulnerability. And I am sort of speechless...
On the other hand, there are also bad apples on Sanctioned Suicide. But it doesn't feel the same. Sanctioned Suicide has a very bad reputation and we should be all aware that on the internet vulnerable people can be taken advantage of by bad actors. But in therapy? Should something like that happen? The way she did it was rotten to the core. On a meter of how depraved her actions were it was pretty sick. I think she isn't aware of the conseqeunces of her actions. The good thing is I have a pretty good hand to win the case. She literally wanted to destroy the basis of my existence. She tried that and there is no denial of that. The irony is by doing that she might destroyed her own existence. Maybe it is a mutual destruction but I doubt that. My strategy was getting into a position of strength and no appeasement. I didn't expected mercy from her. And I think I was right in my consideration. The thing is now that the evidence is overwhelmingly on my side, she wants mercy from me. But I want to clean my name. And if the only way for that is to call out her actions, I certainly will do that. I also need to protect other patients of such a deprave behavior. You know I was smart and resilient enough thus far not to fall for her traps and manipulation. But maybe I am not the first patient to whom she does something like that.
I said in another thread I might have a smoking gun. I think she panicks about that. Because there is a high likelihood that if the smoking gun holds, she will lose her licence for her actions. Actually, she might could get a prison sentence. I won't specify my smoking gun but it is a trace she left and that I might can prove. Partially, she already admitted to that crime...The whole thing is so insane.
I have experienced so much fucking abuse in my life. But if I became an extremist on any issue I would simply repeat the mistakes other people did to me. The lesson of abuse is to become more aware of injustice and to get sensitized for it. Maybe developing mechanisms to avoid future abuse. I have some and they are very draining. But hell it worked. to prevent even worse...
After my recent experience with my therapist I can see why people are demonizing therapy. And actually I think demonizing therapy is really not good. And I am a pretty a bad role model for posting about this. But this is actually what just happened to me 4 weeks ago. This is real. This is my fucking reality. I think it is good to encourage people from Sanctioned Suicide to try therapy before committing suicide. This community is too critical of therapy. I always emphasized that. Because it is a final and irreversible step. But I was at my lowest and she kicked me for it. She exploited my vulnerability. And I am sort of speechless...
On the other hand, there are also bad apples on Sanctioned Suicide. But it doesn't feel the same. Sanctioned Suicide has a very bad reputation and we should be all aware that on the internet vulnerable people can be taken advantage of by bad actors. But in therapy? Should something like that happen? The way she did it was rotten to the core. On a meter of how depraved her actions were it was pretty sick. I think she isn't aware of the conseqeunces of her actions. The good thing is I have a pretty good hand to win the case. She literally wanted to destroy the basis of my existence. She tried that and there is no denial of that. The irony is by doing that she might destroyed her own existence. Maybe it is a mutual destruction but I doubt that. My strategy was getting into a position of strength and no appeasement. I didn't expected mercy from her. And I think I was right in my consideration. The thing is now that the evidence is overwhelmingly on my side, she wants mercy from me. But I want to clean my name. And if the only way for that is to call out her actions, I certainly will do that. I also need to protect other patients of such a deprave behavior. You know I was smart and resilient enough thus far not to fall for her traps and manipulation. But maybe I am not the first patient to whom she does something like that.
I said in another thread I might have a smoking gun. I think she panicks about that. Because there is a high likelihood that if the smoking gun holds, she will lose her licence for her actions. Actually, she might could get a prison sentence. I won't specify my smoking gun but it is a trace she left and that I might can prove. Partially, she already admitted to that crime...The whole thing is so insane.
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