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fishygirl

fishygirl

in the end, nothing matters
Sep 17, 2023
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the other night i thought i saw your face. was it you? im not sure. if you had recognized me, you certaintly didnt stop or react. isnt that too cruel? or was it because you were with someone else? that girl, next to you, where i wish i could be. i hate her. i hate her because somehow, she has what i dont. somehow, she was an easy choice for you.

do you know how much it hurts everytime i think of you? everytime i dream of you? i know you dont. because not for a second do you think of me, right? not even when youre wearing my sweater, or playing those cds. is that figure still on your shelf? do you still like to paint your nails blood red? is it all hidden away or do you have no shame?

i have nothing but memories to remember you by.
i was never anything special to you, and i think thats what hurts the most.

i still care so much about you and i dont know why. im so lonely without you it hurts. i just want to be next to you again. i want to listen to music with you again. i want you to hurt me and to destroy me.

when the time comes, ill talk to you again. can you hold me before i go?
 
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