I am thinking of trying to somehow involve the person I blame...

[Walilamdzii]

I found an airbnb that is literally in the building beside theirs, and I feel like if I chose a nearby location, they would more understand that I'm blaming them if there was a news report or if people heard about it or whatever. I could write a lengthy note explaining all the reasons, but I can't really be bothered. My ideal would be for them to find me and have to deal with the trauma of that, given that all the trauma I've experienced is due to them.

I can't think of a way to do that though really, so the only thing I can come up with is using a nearby location. Does anyone else have any ideas?

 

[todiefor]

What if they are not at all traumatised, would you still want to?

 

[MrDarkness]

I know it's my room to say, but why blame them, your death is already going hurt people, why spread more hurt, just me tho, when I die, I wanna die without causing people pain just me tho

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Maybe they couldn't care less?

 

[todiefor]

Do you want him to be traumatised, or do you want other people to know what he did?

 

[R.E.N.]

Seems petty and barely impactful.

 

[Walilamdzii]

What if they are not at all traumatised, would you still want to?

Well it's like I'm planning to anyway, so I would do so in the hope that it somehow has an effect? I mean it has to be somewhere right, and at this level of anhedonia I don't really have any bucket list type things that would be nice for me to do.

I know it's my room to say, but why blame them, your death is already going hurt people, why spread more hurt, just me tho, when I die, I wanna die without causing people pain just me tho

Because their decisions have basically caused me brain damage and for my entire life to derail... then on top of that they went out of their way to damage me more. But maybe given that they've done these things, they would get some twisted satisfaction out of it...

Maybe they couldn't care less?

Yeah that's the feeling I have actually, but I still think they wouldn't want the damage to their reputation/rumours... or inconvenience.

Do you want him to be traumatised, or do you want other people to know what he did?

Mainly the latter, but if I could actually get through to him that he should stop treating people like this then that would be great. Maybe a death would be enough for that.

Seems petty and barely impactful.

-Shrug-

 

[todiefor]

I don't think someone that would have hurt you so deeply would really care or change their behaviour in the future regardless of what you do. Also why do him any favours to make his life better for him in the future, it's not worth your time. If you want other people to know maybe write that letter and post it

 

[Aisley]

It would be best to publicise it somehow. Suicides are swept under rugs quickly and discreetly. I had a friend catch her own bus a couple months ago, and the cops told no one but close family how she did it, or anything else.
This person could end up not knowing a thing about it, and having a lovely day while you're being cleaned up. People rarely give the fucks you think they do.

 

[FuneralCry]

I doubt that person would really care and it isn't like anyone can experience anything once they have left this world. But anyway your feelings certainly are understandable as after all it's so awful how humans create so much unnecessary suffering in this world, I think humans are the worst species.