I am the problem

[tobby rabbit]

Everything gets better but somehow i I manage to fuck things up. I am the problem
Im lazy, i can't and i don't want to feel better.
My friends and most of all my family is suffering from being too worried about my health.
Why was i even born? For what? I don't want to be alive i have no value so why can't i just go peacefully?
Yes i am lazy and yes my choice is to end it all like that, why would you stop me from ctb? You are not trying to save me you just want to save yourself and all of the feelings, memory that you have about me. Why are you trying to change my plans on suicide when you can change your feelings about me being gone? It is my choice FUCK OF ALREADY AND LET ME GO

 

[Mxverick]

The people can't understand your the pain until the try it.

 

[FuneralCry]

It repulses me when I hear of people trying to interfere in the right to die, it's so harmful how they cannot accept that nobody is obligated to continue existing here, I find it so incredibly cruel how people cannot just leave this world in peace exactly when they wish to.

 

[ikadasui]

I can tell you now I thought the same way. I just recently learned of forced association and spent a night really thinking back on my childhood. I used to want to learn, I used to be happy, I used to smile, but by being sent into buildings(schools) and forced to be around nightmareish demons they rotted me inside and out. I'll take responsibility for my own mistakes sure, but I was, without a shadow of a doubt exposed to such forces that changed who I was at a core to try and appease my fellow man and it led to my downfall. I was never the problem, but this world is sick and there is no cure. I will take my life, my sister will become miserable, my mother miserable, i fuck things up and I no longer care. Was I born to be a plague? No, I had that reconciliation the other day, but this sick world caused me to be one and I'll carry out my new role. That is all there is to it

 

[MrDarkness]

Your not the problem, they clearly care about you, sadly your in so much pain rn, that getting help isn't easy, I am there rn, they are worried about you so they truly care

 

[jessisme]

Everything gets better but somehow i I manage to fuck things up. I am the problem
Im lazy, i can't and i don't want to feel better.
My friends and most of all my family is suffering from being too worried about my health.
Why was i even born? For what? I don't want to be alive i have no value so why can't i just go peacefully?
Yes i am lazy and yes my choice is to end it all like that, why would you stop me from ctb? You are not trying to save me you just want to save yourself and all of the feelings, memory that you have about me. Why are you trying to change my plans on suicide when you can change your feelings about me being gone? It is my choice FUCK OF ALREADY AND LET ME GO

What's your method?

 

[SolomonKado]

Everything gets better but somehow i I manage to fuck things up. I am the problem
Im lazy, i can't and i don't want to feel better.
My friends and most of all my family is suffering from being too worried about my health.
Why was i even born? For what? I don't want to be alive i have no value so why can't i just go peacefully?
Yes i am lazy and yes my choice is to end it all like that, why would you stop me from ctb? You are not trying to save me you just want to save yourself and all of the feelings, memory that you have about me. Why are you trying to change my plans on suicide when you can change your feelings about me being gone? It is my choice FUCK OF ALREADY AND LET ME GO

Have you always been this way. We're things better before. I'd hate to think you've been this way from the beginning because that would mean you've been hurting since you were old enough to remember.

The world doesn't want people to CTB because of exactly what you said.

I hope for your sake you are able to find your peace no matter what it is. Living is harder than it needs to be honestly. Especially when you have no want to function like those around you. We are not all born to have that perfect life where we have mostly everything we want and need.

 

[tobby rabbit]

Your not the problem, they clearly care about you, sadly your in so much pain rn, that getting help isn't easy, I am there rn, they are worried about you so they truly care

I'm trying to make them feel better but i don't know how to do it without lying. They don't like lies, but how am a supposed to smooth their feelings? I can't change my thoughts and my desire to die

What's your method?

SN deffo

 

[MrDarkness]

I'm trying to make them feel better but i don't know how to do it without lying. They don't like lies, but how am a supposed to smooth their feelings? I can't change my thoughts and my desire to die

SN deffo

That's the sad part, I'm in the same boat, suicide nobody wins sadly

 

[Grimpoteuthis]

I can definitely relate. It always feels like I caused everything to myself.