
prone2fury
i have pretty hair
- Feb 4, 2023
- 67
For some short backstory, up until young adulthood, I was very book smart and respectful to my teachers and elders. Of course this meant that I rarely needed to try in school, which came back to bite me later when I had a huge depression crashout at the start of college. What few abilities I hadn't forgotten were completely useless now.
The worst part is that I have attempted before to learn new skills. Riflery, driving planes, carpentry, theater, fitness. Nothing stuck and nothing was fulfilling, and all I was doing was failing and suffering and wasting years of my life. Nowadays, when I try something new like music or art or writing, I quit when it gets difficult in the slightest way. I hate being this way and I don't know what to do. I've been on antidepressants on and off for about 3 months.
I'd like to find some skill or talent that I don't hate, but I worry it's impossible due to my sheer lazy piece of shit nature. Is there anything I can do to find something worth doing, or should I give up and CTB?
The worst part is that I have attempted before to learn new skills. Riflery, driving planes, carpentry, theater, fitness. Nothing stuck and nothing was fulfilling, and all I was doing was failing and suffering and wasting years of my life. Nowadays, when I try something new like music or art or writing, I quit when it gets difficult in the slightest way. I hate being this way and I don't know what to do. I've been on antidepressants on and off for about 3 months.
I'd like to find some skill or talent that I don't hate, but I worry it's impossible due to my sheer lazy piece of shit nature. Is there anything I can do to find something worth doing, or should I give up and CTB?