I am so tired I want to die.

[fox_wannabe]

I just feel so tired by all the responsibilities and things I need to learn and commuting and all of that shit. My levels of energy are very low by default I feel like I could sleep all day but I can't. I used to be able to work hard and go to gym but now I just can't even go outside after I get back home. I feel a bit depressed lately. Just this low state of depression that keeps me down but lets me get high from time to time. Everything is a bit stressful and repetitive at the same time and I feel I am stuck in perpetual cycle of "I need to get through this week" because every week steals a tiny bit from me and I cannot get It back. I am loosing drive every week to do shit and to outside world I look lazier from week to week, while I just struggle to keep It together.

 

[whatevs]

I'm in a similar boat, have JUST the energy/motivation/vitality to do like a 6h job (or a 8h one where the last hours aren't productive) and then pace around home, resting and doing fuckall.

I actually came to the realization recently that the main reason I have no friends or sexual partners is simply that I have no capacity to do sports, active hobbies, clubbing, trips, etc. I'm not ugly nor boring, I'm just sick and depressed.

So yeah, low energy is akin to being half-dead, half-present, limping through life.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I actually came to the realization recently that the main reason I have no friends or sexual partners is simply that I have no capacity to do sports, active hobbies, clubbing, trips, etc. I'm not ugly nor boring, I'm just sick and depressed.

Oh I feel you. Even tho I do not feel like I would get any sexual partners XD. I could still do hobbies I have no time/energy to do. I used to do art, I used to do sports, walk, explore. Now It is all gone.

 

[whatevs]

Oh I feel you. Even tho I do not feel like I would get any sexual partners XD. I could still do hobbies I have no time/energy to do. I used to do art, I used to do sports, walk, explore. Now It is all gone.

Hahaha, well I'm actually kind of good looking, sometimes women show interest but I still live with my parents, am exhausted all day and have all sorts of weird/antisocial ideas.

 

[stoiccactus]

Oh man do I ever hear you there. I sleep at most 5-6 hours a night, most nights around 4 hours between my 8 billion responsibilities to people and work. If there's anything driving me to off myself its that I feel absolutely zero hope that this will ever change. Even if I had a way to change all this work, I wouldn't know how to execute. I'm just so fucking tired and my body is just so beat to hell these days. This is it, huh

 

[fox_wannabe]

Hahaha, well I'm actually kind of good looking, sometimes women show interest but I still live with my parents, am exhausted all day and have all sorts of weird/antisocial ideas.

Well I had few females showing interest in me. But It was when I had good aura around me. When I was walking more upright and was less in the clouds, acting less weird.

Oh man do I ever hear you there. I sleep at most 5-6 hours a night, most nights around 4 hours between my 8 billion responsibilities to people and work. If there's anything driving me to off myself its that I feel absolutely zero hope that this will ever change. Even if I had a way to change all this work, I wouldn't know how to execute. I'm just so fucking tired and my body is just so beat to hell these days. This is it, huh

Sorry to hear that. It is not that bad for me. You just gotta hate modern slavery (yeah it is not slavery per say but system is made from our sweat and tiers and sometimes blood.). This is inhumane.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

I just feel so tired by all the responsibilities and things I need to learn and commuting and all of that shit. My levels of energy are very low by default I feel like I could sleep all day but I can't. I used to be able to work hard and go to gym but now I just can't even go outside after I get back home. I feel a bit depressed lately. Just this low state of depression that keeps me down but lets me get high from time to time. Everything is a bit stressful and repetitive at the same time and I feel I am stuck in perpetual cycle of "I need to get through this week" because every week steals a tiny bit from me and I cannot get It back. I am loosing drive every week to do shit and to outside world I look lazier from week to week, while I just struggle to keep It together.

I've always felt like I can't work in the same location for more than a couple of hours. I get incredibly bored-sick of being in the same place all day, around the same people. I've never been able to cope with full time work for this reason. My brain would make me walk out of full time jobs - it just couldn't accept it. I managed to find a job where I clean the communal areas of social housing blocks and various council properties throughout the day, which meant driving from place to place all day long on my own, only communicating with my employer by phone, then I'd clean some offices in the evening where I had the keys, and I could cope with that OK - I was actually earning good money. But then the chronic pain began, and I couldn't do the only job I've ever been able to tolerate any more. There's no way I'm sitting in an office or warehouse all day long. I'd rather be dead.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life can be very exhausting and stressful. I'm sorry that you are suffering. I am also tired of living, I just want to be gone. It just sounds so peaceful to be able to sleep forever. I wish you the best.

 

[thedaywillcome]

This life can be very exhausting and stressful. I'm sorry that you are suffering. I am also tired of living, I just want to be gone. It just sounds so peaceful to be able to sleep forever. I wish you the best.

its this emotional pain, thats hurting me.