Venting I am so lonely

[worldsworst]

I only talk to my girlfriend and a mutual friend who I kinda don't like because he is very mean and negative all the time. I have severe social anxiety and do not leave my house, I have only had a handful of friends in my life and everyone else who I spoke to ever just had me tag along. What do I even do my own family barely speaks to me. There is no place for me anywhere I can't communicate to other people I cannot act like a normal person I cannot talk like a normal person I am a disgusting anomaly I am too scared to even make friends, even if I were to try and succeed we would talk for a few days max before we never spoke again because that is how it always goes. There is nothing I can do I am a failure of a human being, cannot even work a job because I am an actual idiot, can't go outside without being scared.

 

[Special Week]

We're in the same boat, although to be honest, my situation's worse lol – literally the only person I have in my life is that best friend from Switzerland, but I really do think between she and me friendship is over even I'm actually quite well-known on a fairly popular forum, and yet I've still got no one. Most of the people I talk to either stop talking to me or I stop talking to them. On top of that, I don't speak to my family anymore I've cut ties with my mum and I've only got two contacts on WhatsApp. I don't know if I could be considered the loneliest person in the world