Venting i am so alone i want to die

[nails]

life is so boring and sad. i'm so bitter and alone. i get so pissed off when someone tells me about how they spent time with their friend or partner because i can't relate at all. i spend all my days alone and it's so shameful and pathetic.
i miss my toxic friend who i cut off a long time ago. she would've kept talking to me. she treated me like shit, but it's better than no connection at all. the whole "having no friends is better than having bad friends" thinking process is so stupid and i hate myself for ever believing something like that. as someone who has experience with both, i'd genuinely rather be treated horribly than be this lonely. as long as they are there consistently, i don't really care atp.

 

[wheelsonthebus]

We've become so weirdly individualistic recently, everywhere. Especially in the West, especially-especially in the US and urban/suburban UK. It's so weirdly hard to connect with others meaningfully now and for those connections to last, it almost feels like a ton of us are all in the same boat but folks just get so burned out with maintaining friendships and then the people without this issue are cool with the friends they do have and not motivated to expand their circles. It's not natural and it's not an environment that the human brain even knows what to do with.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I'm done with people and desperately want to be totally alone. I am in a traditional family situation but I long to be alone. It's like being locked up in a cage.

 

[nails]

I'm done with people and desperately want to be totally alone. I am in a traditional family situation but I long to be alone. It's like being locked up in a cage.

that's understandable, i hope you find your freedom and peace soon.

 

[kunikuzushi]

I agree 100% it's better to be in bad company than no company at all. I'm not built for isolation. I've lived both in complete isolation for years and in relationships/friendships with people that treat me horribly, and it's much better to have other people with me.

 

[nails]

I agree 100% it's better to be in bad company than no company at all. I'm not built for isolation. I've lived both in complete isolation for years and in relationships/friendships with people that treat me horribly, and it's much better to have other people with me.

yeah, i'm in the same boat. i just can't handle being alone like this. isolation and toxic friends will both lead to further mental health deterioration, so i don't really care. they're both horrible, but i'd rather choose the option that doesn't leave me feeling so suffocated. too bad i don't even have toxic people in my life to fall back on. it's so silly, lol.

anyways, i'm wishing you the best. i'm not sure of your situation, but i hope you can be surrounded by good people who care for you.

 

[kunikuzushi]

yeah, i'm in the same boat. i just can't handle being alone like this. isolation and toxic friends will both lead to further mental health deterioration, so i don't really care. they're both horrible, but i'd rather choose the option that doesn't leave me feeling so suffocated. too bad i don't even have toxic people in my life to fall back on. it's so silly, lol.

anyways, i'm wishing you the best. i'm not sure of your situation, but i hope you can be surrounded by good people who care for you.

Thank you for reminding me it's kind of an ok thing to be around toxic people because the alternative is just as bad. It feels freeing in a way because I can accept it easier. But yeah I really wish you can find some nice company. And thank you so much, I wish you the best too.

 

[newslaves916]

life is so boring and sad. i'm so bitter and alone. i get so pissed off when someone tells me about how they spent time with their friend or partner because i can't relate at all. i spend all my days alone and it's so shameful and pathetic.
i miss my toxic friend who i cut off a long time ago. she would've kept talking to me. she treated me like shit, but it's better than no connection at all. the whole "having no friends is better than having bad friends" thinking process is so stupid and i hate myself for ever believing something like that. as someone who has experience with both, i'd genuinely rather be treated horribly than be this lonely. as long as they are there consistently, i don't really care atp.

You can talk to me if you want
I feel the same alot

 

[rustcohle4life]

I'm extremely distrustful of everyone and prefer to be alone. Probably not healthy but can you blame me?