
Braindead Atheist
Specialist
- Oct 7, 2020
- 387
one friend just betrayed me and I think another friend is ditching me. I am going to kill myself after i say good bye to a past teacher this april. i don't think she really cares but I'm not telling her of my plans because she's one of those pc people who "has a duty" to report it. I feel like I need to just go through with it asap before more ex friends get together and turn on me. I hate people and how they don't accept me for my flaws. i'm so done.
update; ok, so I bought the dnp with my next paycheck I am going to buy the gelatin capsols to store it in. I am going to go to the void so soon! I need to prepare! I already made a death playlist to calm me down as I go. I have nostagic songs so I increase my chances of getting memory projection. I want to have a positive death experience and see something like colton burpo or eben alexander. I just want some peace for myself. I deserve better and this life is just not working out for me. good bye world.
update; ok, so I bought the dnp with my next paycheck I am going to buy the gelatin capsols to store it in. I am going to go to the void so soon! I need to prepare! I already made a death playlist to calm me down as I go. I have nostagic songs so I increase my chances of getting memory projection. I want to have a positive death experience and see something like colton burpo or eben alexander. I just want some peace for myself. I deserve better and this life is just not working out for me. good bye world.
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