Venting I am not over it, and never will be.

[smpkie]

Having social media at a young age has never been an advantage, especially with the amount of predators lurking around.

Nearly 7 years ago I thought I had found the sweetest woman ever. I was wrong, so wrong... This woman had so many twisted fantasies that preteen me had no idea about. I was just excited to meet a Roblox game developer. Such a stupid story that has impacted me in ways I cannot describe. It has shown me that I will never meet people interested in interacting with me unless they have their weird reasons. I was exposed to pornography, lolicon, the idea of incestual relationships, and even feral shit that I don't quite remember. This, whilst being just a kid trying to have fun online. I'm not over this, hell, the idea of someone wanting me is very appealing. But I cannot get in contact with someone who has this many allegations. The age gap between me and her, which doesn't matter nowadays since we are both adults, is 7 whole years. I used to like the idea of being loved in this way, although when I was a teen I felt so traumatized that I refused to refer to myself as a girl. I didn't want to be fetishized in that way anymore, but now I kind of miss the affection. It's wrong of me to feel this way but the loneliness has caught up to me. I'm not the only "victim", from what I've been informed and I do not wish to bring anyone memories regarding this situation, but as an edgy teen I have happened to carve her Twitter handle onto my skin (I regret that a lot)

 

[groucho]

Have you sought therapy for this? It does sound like you were groomed. If something illegal happen you should go to the police, an adult shouldn't be interacting in that way with a young teenager or child. Predators like that destroy lives and should be exposed for what they did and punished.

 

[smpkie]

Have you sought therapy for this? It does sound like you were groomed. If something illegal happen you should go to the police, an adult shouldn't be interacting in that way with a young teenager or child. Predators like that destroy lives and should be exposed for what they did and punished.

I'd hate opening up about this to people who see me face to face. I feel ruined. This whole thing is just a good reason for me to ctb

As for my groomer, she has been exposed multiple times, recently "leaving the internet". She has ruined multiple lives and always acted as if she was a little angel, who did no wrong.