Venting i am lost

[HunterTheShark]

i am so lost in my life, i don't know what to do anymore. I am a trans man but im not even sure tha one day i can really be myself, i feel like i will never get T, people will never see me as a man. I have been in depression for 6 years now but theres no way out for me, sometimes i don't know if i should die or stay, everything is so hard. I need help.

 

[venin.n]

i am so lost in my life, i don't know what to do anymore. I am a trans man but im not even sure tha one day i can really be myself, i feel like i will never get T, people will never see me as a man. I have been in depression for 6 years now but theres no way out for me, sometimes i don't know if i should die or stay, everything is so hard. I need help.

I am lost too

 

[Hevn]

@HunterTheShark
I'm sorry about your situation.
I can understand how you feel. Earlier, I solidly considered myself as transwoman. This happened for 7 years. And it seemed that nothing could shake my confidence that I was a woman. As does belonging to a transwoman community. As well as to the lgbt community.
Then, I first met a transwomans... more precisely, they themselves asked to come into my life, to be friends...
A lot of bad things happened. For many years... I was cruelly betrayed by my own kind. I was tormented by my own kind. Since the end of 2018, when all this began - it became painful for me to associate myself with transwomans, womans. And with every MtF friend who betrayed me, deceived me, it got worse. Now I have almost completely lost my internal connection with transwomans, lgbt. This is worse, painful than when my own mother betrayed me.
I lost myself.

 

[godsseepiestsoldier]

Man im so sorry to hear that but i feel u. Ik ill never be able to come out even remotly irl or seek hrt. Hope one day stuff works out 4 u bro