I am jealous of my peers

[sometimes.sometimes]

I want to stop being jealous of everything already. The only good thing my jealousy does is that it makes me work even harder than I need to. I get satisfaction from it, but that satisfaction goes away right after I remember I will not have that life I see in other people. I understand that everybody's lives will be different, but why do the people who hurt me get that happy life, but I don't? It is just unfair. I want to ruin their lives so badly, but I know if I do that, it will leave me with so much guilt.

I am angry all of the time because of that jealousy. I hide my jealousy around others, but it just keeps eating me up inside.

My life is centered around anger and jealousy, and I wish that I can just have one day when those emotions are gone. I want peace.

 

[Sweet Tart]

Do you have some good outlets for the intense feelings? Other than working really hard.

I have a lot of rage at my core. Idk what to do with it, so I use escapism for temporary relief.

 

[sometimes.sometimes]

Do you have some good outlets for the intense feelings? Other than working really hard.

I have a lot of rage at my core. Idk what to do with it, so I use escapism for temporary relief.

Not much. Sometimes I will change how I look, act really confident, or lie. It is mainly just working really hard, though.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life certainly is very unfair, I see this world where people suffer all through no fault of their own as being so cruel. It must be tiring suffering like that but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[James34]

In my honest opinion why work hard when you won't get paid any more than you already are? There's literally zero guarantee that you'll get a promotion for working harder and more likely than not your hard work will just be ignored like everything in capitalism.