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letmeseethedeath

letmeseethedeath

catching the bus
Aug 4, 2018
465
Hey guys, just a quick update, thought everyone deserves it, I hit my head pretty badly as I lost consciousness, it was severely painful, I am not going to lie!
It didn't work, and I am assuming it didn't because I didn't take meto, so I puked it out, puked most of it out, the thing is I did take a lot but not the proper amount as my feet and hand did turn blue, yet I am still here.

I won't try it, a second time, as I am pretty shaken rn, at least for the near future.
Secondly, I feel okay now, but very disappointed that I ruined my shot.
don't feel bad, please be kind to yourself and whenever you'll feel ready to ctb try another method
 
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Krash1990

Krash1990

Student
May 31, 2020
110
Hey guys, just a quick update, thought everyone deserves it, I hit my head pretty badly as I lost consciousness, it was severely painful, I am not going to lie!
It didn't work, and I am assuming it didn't because I didn't take meto, so I puked it out, puked most of it out, the thing is I did take a lot but not the proper amount as my feet and hand did turn blue, yet I am still here.

I won't try it, a second time, as I am pretty shaken rn, at least for the near future.
Secondly, I feel okay now, but very disappointed that I ruined my shot.
How did it feel? Can you describe the events?
 
GerMann

GerMann

year of birth: 1972
Nov 30, 2018
274
Do you have stomach pain also? I hope your headache goes away soon, this must feeling like standing up after a fainting.
 
yetme

yetme

Arcanist
Oct 20, 2019
486
Hey guys, just a quick update, thought everyone deserves it, I hit my head pretty badly as I lost consciousness, it was severely painful, I am not going to lie!
It didn't work, and I am assuming it didn't because I didn't take meto, so I puked it out, puked most of it out, the thing is I did take a lot but not the proper amount as my feet and hand did turn blue, yet I am still here.

I won't try it, a second time, as I am pretty shaken rn, at least for the near future.
Secondly, I feel okay now, but very disappointed that I ruined my shot.

OMG! you survived 40g os SN?!? What did it feel like?
 
InTheAirTonight

InTheAirTonight

I tried
Feb 29, 2020
475
Hey guys, just a quick update, thought everyone deserves it, I hit my head pretty badly as I lost consciousness, it was severely painful, I am not going to lie!
It didn't work, and I am assuming it didn't because I didn't take meto, so I puked it out, puked most of it out, the thing is I did take a lot but not the proper amount as my feet and hand did turn blue, yet I am still here.

I won't try it, a second time, as I am pretty shaken rn, at least for the near future.
Secondly, I feel okay now, but very disappointed that I ruined my shot.
Oh my goodness. It's a miracle you are still here. I'm shocked and not sure what to think.
 
GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
6,728
Hey guys, just a quick update, thought everyone deserves it, I hit my head pretty badly as I lost consciousness, it was severely painful, I am not going to lie!
It didn't work, and I am assuming it didn't because I didn't take meto, so I puked it out, puked most of it out, the thing is I did take a lot but not the proper amount as my feet and hand did turn blue, yet I am still here.

I won't try it, a second time, as I am pretty shaken rn, at least for the near future.
Secondly, I feel okay now, but very disappointed that I ruined my shot.

Thanks for the update!

May I ask a couple of questions?

How much water did you use?

You said about 2 tablespoons of SN -- were they measuring spoons or the kind you eat with?

When all of that was mixed, about what percentage of it did you drink?
 
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x-Ace-x

x-Ace-x

Experienced
Aug 20, 2019
295
Did you fast? Was your regime only SN + water?
 
Busdriver

Busdriver

Mage
Feb 11, 2020
513
Oh my goodness. It's a miracle you are still here. I'm shocked and not sure what to think.

With threads like this, I have a feeling we are going to live for a very long time... :ehh:

@LifeAfterDeath00, did you test your SN on purity?
 
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Anonymoussn

Specialist
May 12, 2020
381
He's guessing based on OPs post that he took 2 tablespoons



But that should be more like 40g not 20
Wouldn't that be 30g? In this thread: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/how-do-you-measure-sn.26113/

People are saying a tablespoon is 15g?

So do we think 30g is too much regardless or would this have been fine with AE and/or an empty stomach?
 
xLosthopex

xLosthopex

Tell my dogs I love them
May 29, 2020
1,135
But I thought 25g was enough to ctb even if you throw up ??
 
InTheAirTonight

InTheAirTonight

I tried
Feb 29, 2020
475
With threads like this, I have a feeling we are going to live for a very long time... :ehh:

@LifeAfterDeath00, did you test your SN on purity?
Yea this is why I might go with CO. Lol.
 
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Living sucks

Forced out of life before I wanted to leave
Mar 27, 2020
3,143
Your hands and feet should still be blue Without treatment can you post pictures so we know what it looks like?
Also you were online for about 20 mins posting after you had taken it and didn't mention any puking. If you puked after 20 mins you should have had plenty absorbed to not survive.
 
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LifeAfterDeath00

Member
Oct 11, 2019
75
Honestly, I couldn't even stand up. I ran to the bathroom as quickly as i could, I remember throwing up a lot, god the pain was hellish, then I remember I locked myself inside the shower as I had no energy left, I tried to stand up but I quickly fell down, continued doing this for a couple of times and most of the time I hit my head, but since I was already going through a different pain, i didn't feel much pain when I hit my head, later today I felt like my head was in immense pain.
As for the Sn, it is pretty indescribable, it is more like a different sensation altogether, one I can hardly put into words, it is managable if you are sure of what you are trying to do, maybe I wasn't 100% sure? Plus obviously the anxiety kicked in. So, that made me panic too. But the involuentary muscle movement starts in your stomach, hence the throwing up, I don't know what the cure for that is.
 
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HadEnough1974

I try to be funny...
Jan 14, 2020
688
Thanks for the update!

May I ask a couple of questions?

How much water did you use?

You said about 2 tablespoons of SN -- were they measuring spoons or the kind you eat with?

When all of that was mixed, about what percentage of it did you drink?

Exactly same questions I have. Thank you for asking.
 
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OrangeJuiceCabal

Member
Jun 1, 2020
14
Honestly, I couldn't even stand up. I ran to the bathroom as quickly as i could, I remember throwing up a lot, god the pain was hellish, then I remember I locked myself inside the shower as I had no energy left, I tried to stand up but I quickly fell down, continued doing this for a couple of times and most of the time I hit my head, but since I was already going through a different pain, i didn't feel much pain when I hit my head, later today I felt like my head was in immense pain.
As for the Sn, it is pretty indescribable, it is more like a different sensation altogether, one I can hardly put into words, it is managable if you are sure of what you are trying to do, maybe I wasn't 100% sure? Plus obviously the anxiety kicked in. So, that made me panic too. But the involuentary muscle movement starts in your stomach, hence the throwing up, I don't know what the cure for that is.

You can take dopamine blockers to prevent the vomiting. If you are experiencing methemoglobinemia (where your blood loses oxygen, which is how SN works), you can take methylene blue daily until you recover. It's prescribed though so you would have to explain what happened. I hope you feel better and never try it again, and I wish I could do something to convince you not to but I doubt I can. Good luck.
 
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HadEnough1974

I try to be funny...
Jan 14, 2020
688
Greeting to everyone,

Stan's guide is very precise. From my research, those who followed the regimen, fasted, measured exactly 25 grams and used 50 ml of water were successful with their end goal.

Ctb should never be impulsive and well planned in advance and should always be a final option when all other options have been exhausted. Hugs to everyone.

Edit: The use of too much Sn can induce vomiting. Also, the use of too little Sn and too much water can lessen the effectiveness of the Sn.
 
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Bzrluvtriangle

Member
Dec 28, 2019
53
Honestly, I couldn't even stand up. I ran to the bathroom as quickly as i could, I remember throwing up a lot, god the pain was hellish, then I remember I locked myself inside the shower as I had no energy left, I tried to stand up but I quickly fell down, continued doing this for a couple of times and most of the time I hit my head, but since I was already going through a different pain, i didn't feel much pain when I hit my head, later today I felt like my head was in immense pain.
As for the Sn, it is pretty indescribable, it is more like a different sensation altogether, one I can hardly put into words, it is managable if you are sure of what you are trying to do, maybe I wasn't 100% sure? Plus obviously the anxiety kicked in. So, that made me panic too. But the involuentary muscle movement starts in your stomach, hence the throwing up, I don't know what the cure for that is.

Could you try to describe the pain? Are you saying that the pain is manageable?
 
yetme

yetme

Arcanist
Oct 20, 2019
486
Honestly, I couldn't even stand up. I ran to the bathroom as quickly as i could, I remember throwing up a lot, god the pain was hellish, then I remember I locked myself inside the shower as I had no energy left, I tried to stand up but I quickly fell down, continued doing this for a couple of times and most of the time I hit my head, but since I was already going through a different pain, i didn't feel much pain when I hit my head, later today I felt like my head was in immense pain.
As for the Sn, it is pretty indescribable, it is more like a different sensation altogether, one I can hardly put into words, it is managable if you are sure of what you are trying to do, maybe I wasn't 100% sure? Plus obviously the anxiety kicked in. So, that made me panic too. But the involuentary muscle movement starts in your stomach, hence the throwing up, I don't know what the cure for that is.

you're saying about hellish pain. was it from SN? pain where exactly? can you describe it? sorry for all the questions..
 
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Living sucks

Forced out of life before I wanted to leave
Mar 27, 2020
3,143
you're saying about hellish pain. was it from SN? pain where exactly? can you describe it? sorry for all the questions..
Don't be sorry... anyone who posts they are taking SN and survive should expect a million questions.
 
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Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,705
@LifeAfterDeath00, please make sure to get plenty of rest, keep thoroughly hydrated, eat your spinach and be kind to yourself. It was a learning experience. Thank you for fielding people's questions about your experience.
 
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LifeAfterDeath00

Member
Oct 11, 2019
75
@LifeAfterDeath00, please make sure to get plenty of rest, keep thoroughly hydrated, eat your spinach and be kind to yourself. It was a learning experience. Thank you for fielding people's questions about your experience.
Thank you for your kindness <3
 
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x-Ace-x

Experienced
Aug 20, 2019
295
I agree with the others. Please take some rest first and if you don't mind we would be very thankful if you could answer our questions in detail afterwards :hug:

As far as I understood, you did it on impulse and didn't follow the Stan's / PPH guide precisely.

Maybe you took something before SN which could interfere with it or make vomiting more likely?

Did you stop drinking about 2 hours prior to SN?

It's very tricky to say how many grams of SN you took because there are different types of spoons and when we're dealing with grams, it's easy to take less / more.
 
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LifeAfterDeath00

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Oct 11, 2019
75
I agree with the others. Please take some rest first and if you don't mind we would be very thankful if you could answer our questions in detail afterwards :hug:

As far as I understood, you did it on impulse and didn't follow the Stan's / PPH guide precisely.

Maybe you took something before SN which could interfere with it or make vomiting more likely?

Did you stop drinking about 2 hours prior to SN?

It's very tricky to say how many grams of SN you took because there are different types of spoons and when we're dealing with grams, it's easy to take less / more.
A lot of people are asking a lot of questions, and I am under no obligation to answer them, however I will answer the most common one.
Did I do it impulsively? Yes.
Did I follow any guide? No.
Did I drink the whole thing? No. Probably about 15 gm Sn.
Will I do it again? Depends how life turns out.
 
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FriendofDeath

FriendofDeath

Elementalist
May 22, 2020
833
Hey guys, just a quick update, thought everyone deserves it, I hit my head pretty badly as I lost consciousness, it was severely painful, I am not going to lie!
It didn't work, and I am assuming it didn't because I didn't take meto, so I puked it out, puked most of it out, the thing is I did take a lot but not the proper amount as my feet and hand did turn blue, yet I am still here.

I won't try it, a second time, as I am pretty shaken rn, at least for the near future.
Secondly, I feel okay now, but very disappointed that I ruined my shot.
Thank you for the update. I know you may not be happy with the outcome, but I'm glad to see your note! You probably have a lot to think about. Still sending light and love!
 
Notabadguy

Notabadguy

Mage
Feb 7, 2020
576
There are a lot of SN goodbye threads that end up in survival. Why? Is SN not reliable? Doesn't the person need health care after that?
 
Krash1990

Krash1990

Student
May 31, 2020
110
There are a lot of SN goodbye threads that end up in survival. Why? Is SN not reliable? Doesn't the person need health care after that?
Because people don't take it the right way.

Many aren't 100% looking to catch the bus.

They are impulsively doing things and even hoping they survive many times I believe.

The statistical survivability rate of SN when done rate is extremely low.
 
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WhatIsMyLife

Experienced
Apr 22, 2020
227
There are a lot of SN goodbye threads that end up in survival. Why? Is SN not reliable? Doesn't the person need health care after that?
Not really that many. Pretty much all non-fatal attempts are due to people not following the method properly.
 
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