I am going to ctb by partial suspension hanging today

[solemn and sad]

I've been meaning to do this for a few days now. I said goodbye to my best friend without making it obvious that I was going to kill myself. Sometimes I feel anxious about being caught and other times, i feel calm knowing it will be over soon. My life has just become such a shit show and it always has been one. I've run out of options and motivation I just hope I don't get found before I can be resuscitated. I've tested to get the right knots and figure out where to put the rope. I just need to actually do it. I feel bad that I will continue to be a nuisance to these people but at least it will be one last time for good.

 

[GrippySocks]

I wish you luck. Hopefully your attempt goes to plan and you're finally free from all the pain and suffering that you've endured. You deserve peace. I'm sorry things didn't work out.

 

[Caoine01]

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[Someone123]

I hope you are able to find peace and I don't want to discourage you from finding peace, but please just be aware that this method often fails, though it sometimes works, and make sure you have a plan for what if it fails- this could result in an involuntary hospitalization, though if you are isolated enough you could just rest for a couple days while the marks on your neck fade and then not have further consequences. Several people who posted here have failed from 15 to 25 times with this method, though it is well known that quite a few celebrities have ctb'd using this method. Why it works in some cases and not others is not clear.

 

[wanttodie]

good luck

 

[missingpeace]

Life isn't easy, hope you have a peaceful transition.

 

[solemn and sad]

I hope you are able to find peace and I don't want to discourage you from finding peace, but please just be aware that this method often fails, though it sometimes works, and make sure you have a plan for what if it fails- this could result in an involuntary hospitalization, though if you are isolated enough you could just rest for a couple days while the marks on your neck fade and then not have further consequences. Several people who posted here have failed from 15 to 25 times with this method, though it is well known that quite a few celebrities have ctb'd using this method. Why it works in some cases and not others is not clear.

I've looked into it enough to hopefully be able to get it right the first time that's what I'm hoping for. I don't have access to lethal drugs or weapons or really any other methods. I just have to hope

Hello, aren't you curious about what's waiting for you in this forum?
Anyway, I would have loved to get to know you better. If you want send me a PM

Im not sure how to send pms but thank you I wish you well

 

[everyday struggle]

Good luck

 

[ctbsurvivor<3]

If you can, it may be smarter to delay to acquire the means for a more certain departure and to really make sure you've exhausted all other options. I can assure you, folks would rather have the "nuisance" than nothing at all.
If you can't be convinced or you're already gone, I wish you a swift and painless journey.

 

[Shivali]

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it sounds terrifying failing this method, it's extreme cruelty how other people interrupt hanging attempts and just cause more torment. I do envy those who succeed with this method, as I still fear it. But anyway, I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for as it certainly can be awful feeling trapped here.

 

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

To me it sounds terrifying failing this method, it's extreme cruelty how other people interrupt hanging attempts and just cause more torment. I do envy those who succeed with this method, as I still fear it. But anyway, I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for as it certainly can be awful feeling trapped here.

Saw a Tik Tok, wheelchair bound suicide survivors barely able to breath, completely paralysed with inspirational music "hold on for a better tomorrow", if he wasn't suffering before he most certainly is now ...