Discussion I am feeling better sometimes, but I am not getting better.

[Done_With_It_All]

Venting here,

Over the past 3 months I have had 2 attempts, and as someone who has a unwavering support system, they are making sure I am safe whether I want to be or not.

So right not I am getting all of the feel good things. Food, entertainment, you name it, I can probably have it. But the thing is that my life is not actually GETTING better. Just feeling better.

IDK what to expect, because, to me I still want to CTB because I am gaining weight, not going anywhere, taking it day by day, and some days I am actually like, hey I feel better today only to realize that I feel better because of a superficial pleasure, not a deep existential pleasure.

 

[KafkaF]

Venting here,

Over the past 3 months I have had 2 attempts, and as someone who has a unwavering support system, they are making sure I am safe whether I want to be or not.

So right not I am getting all of the feel good things. Food, entertainment, you name it, I can probably have it. But the thing is that my life is not actually GETTING better. Just feeling better.

IDK what to expect, because, to me I still want to CTB because I am gaining weight, not going anywhere, taking it day by day, and some days I am actually like, hey I feel better today only to realize that I feel better because of a superficial pleasure, not a deep existential pleasure.

Maybe it's good to just start off feeling better at all. You need a foundation to build any recovery on top of.