I am a self hating autist

[vermin]

I despise myself for being autistic and i also hate being around fellow autistic people. I know it doesnt make much sense but for some reason when im around fellow autistic people which happened alot because i was in special educuation i felt so emberassed when they spoke loudly or where awkward when interaccting with neurotypicals, it was like i felt shame for seeing fellow autistic people unintentionly embarrase themselves.
(also apologise for bad spelling im dyselexic)

 

[HollowCreek]

I'm not autistic but I have ADHD and yeah, no, that's totally valid. It's embaressing. As long as you're nice to people, it's 100% warented to feel and think how you want. I hated when other people with ADHD made themselves look like morons, especially in public but I never blamed them. I felt that way bc we had the exact same issues and I couldnt understand how I managed to act normal and they never did. You don't have to tell people you have any condition. You also dont have to identify with it. Identity politics are total bs. As an adult, you can never mention it, not associate with those ppl and move on

 

[ALonelyFreak]

No I understand you cuz I'm autistic and when I'm around other autistic people I'm constantly reminded I'm autistic too.
Autistic meetings never arise naturally do they? They are always organized around autism :( It's never just a few autistic friends casually hanging out.

 

[bleeding_heart_show]

I did not expect to run into ddr guy here.

I had a whole paragraph typed out, but it felt pointless posting it when it could be summarized in a single sentence:

I have never found a place I fit in.