Venting I am a disappointment to my parents

[deep-sleeper]

I wish that I was a normal person, so that they could actually love me instead of praying every day, hoping that one day I will get better, and force me to go to church which only makes me feel worse

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Kind of the same here. Looking back I realize more and more ways my father in particular hated me. More so by emotional neglect and things he did NOT do, which a normal father would have done. So, I wasn't surprised at all when he made the entire family shun me when I left Jehovah's Witnesses to become a Catholic. He said "we'll talk later" and I was looking forward to that... next thing I know, no one talks to me anymore. Now he's almost 90 and I don't even know if he's still alive, I just know no one returns calls or emails so I gave up years ago. I think maybe it's a different flavor than what you're dealing with but in any case, I think I can relate.

 

[deep-sleeper]

Kind of the same here. Looking back I realize more and more ways my father in particular hated me. More so by emotional neglect and things he did NOT do, which a normal father would have done. So, I wasn't surprised at all when he made the entire family shun me when I left Jehovah's Witnesses to become a Catholic. He said "we'll talk later" and I was looking forward to that... next thing I know, no one talks to me anymore. Now he's almost 90 and I don't even know if he's still alive, I just know no one returns calls or emails so I gave up years ago. I think maybe it's a different flavor than what you're dealing with but in any case, I think I can relate.

I am pretty sure that's what's going to happen if I ever tell my family that I left christianity altogether before I ctb
Also, my mom straight up hates me, as she hates all my friends, hobbies and personality overall

 

[katara]

Kind of the same here. Looking back I realize more and more ways my father in particular hated me. More so by emotional neglect and things he did NOT do, which a normal father would have done. So, I wasn't surprised at all when he made the entire family shun me when I left Jehovah's Witnesses to become a Catholic. He said "we'll talk later" and I was looking forward to that... next thing I know, no one talks to me anymore. Now he's almost 90 and I don't even know if he's still alive, I just know no one returns calls or emails so I gave up years ago. I think maybe it's a different flavor than what you're dealing with but in any case, I think I can relate.

Religion is complicated. I was Catholic and tbh being an atheist is hard, not knowing what will happen. When I feel low, I want to believe there's something greater out there. I've been here for years and clearly nobody is coming to save me. I'm sorry about ur dad, that wasn't ok what he did.