I admitted myself

[let.me.let.go87]

I'm not sure what I want anymore but yall talked me out of the fire idea. I admitted myself I'm trying to get help if this time doesn't work I don't know what I'll do. I'm letting them run with the bipolar idea who knows, maybe I'll find peace and stop suffering. Or maybe I'll get more wrong meds and do it anyway. I just figured if yall are trying to talk me out of it I must be losing my fucking mind for real. We'll see. Give it a couple miserable weeks. I know how to talk my way out of here if need be

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I'm not sure what I want anymore but yall talked me out of the fire idea. I admitted myself I'm trying to get help if this time doesn't work I don't know what I'll do. I'm letting them run with the bipolar idea who knows, maybe I'll find peace and stop suffering. Or maybe I'll get more wrong meds and do it anyway. I just figured if yall are trying to talk me out of it I must be losing my fucking mind for real. We'll see. Give it a couple miserable weeks. I know how to talk my way out of here if need be

I know what it's like to have severe mental illness. I'm so sorry for your suffering and hope you will be helped.

 

[Worndown]

My ex was bipolar, knew it and did nothing. She basically ruined her life and damaged her children. Didn't really do me any favors either.
See how this goes. Bipolar does not need to be a death sentence.
Treatments have varying success and impacts, but trying ultimately benefits you.
Even a fail will give you the direction you need.

 

[cali22♡]

A good step into a good future I am proud of you

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

I hope you get the help you need and deserve. All the best

 

[maniac116]

Glad you're OK & getting help.

 

[let.me.let.go87]

Let me explain further. I also have complex trauma. PTSD. Crippling anxiety I'm on three separate medications for and borderline all because of severe childhood abuse of multiple types but I'm trying. I'm married. That's the only reason I even care enough to try to get help because I have someone I will hurt very badly when and if I leave this mortal plane. I can't take much more. I didn't get to see the doctor today. Maybe I'll find out tomorrow if they can do something. A lot of admits today

 

[Depressive_Thoughts]

I'm so sorry for your suffering, I'm also suffering and so far I couldn't even tell my girlfriend about it

 

[LukaParrot]

Hey... I never thought saying this here... but I'm happy for you.

We need to try at least, suicide is the last option, last resource to do.

It can be a hard path to find the right doctor, if you feel like it's not working, find another one. My mother had to pass thought four psychiatrists, a lot of tryouts with a bunch of drugs... but she did found her answer. Today, she's stable, living a happy life, not everyday but most of days.