I accidentally hinted my ctb at my mom this morning.

[Some place nice]

I was taking my mom to work and she brought up where we are moving. I got the courage and told her "I don't want to move to south Carolina." She looked at me "You think we're really gonna do it, it never happens." And tho she is right it never does, it still scares me to think about. It went from moving one state over all the way to south Carolina. My only friend lives a state above me and my niece is here. So I accidentally told her that my niece was one of my reasons to live and without that Idk if I will. She was very quiet and changed the subject. She already knows I'm in bad shape but I also told her that it is worse than she thinks. So there might be a talk when she gets home.

 

[Worndown]

Did you have that talk or did she let it go?

 

[Some place nice]

Did you have that talk or did she let it go?

She let it go

 

[mia_qwerty]

Oh. Yeah recently mum was taking about something in the future and I said I didn't think I'd be alive for that. She didn't say much. I'm surprised if she can't guess I'm suicidal. Since I tried once already and she found out. Anyway yeah my conversations don't go far with my parents these days