Hysterical crying

[JustHeckinKillMe]

Hey...
I have to live with my mom temporarily. Today she said something very triggering. She basically destroyed my family and is the reason for my childhood trauma and the crippled person I am today (major depression and anxiety , social anxiety,etc.). When she said what she said, I went to ym room, hit my hands to my desk as hard as I could, through stuff at my door made of wood and made a hole in it, then went under my bed sheets and started crying/screaming so loud and hysterically.. What does this mean? Can someone explain this to me? I couldn't controle myself. I felt I was going crazy and was so close to hanging myself, I convinced myself it would go right and I should do it in the next few days. I finally took a Xanax prescribed by my doctor and calmed down but my heart is breaking. She heard me cry loudly in my room, only my aunt came and told me to open the door and said nice things to me and showed she cares, she cried with me. While my mom was in the kitchen pretending nothing is going on..

 

[Mentalmick]

It's just an emotional explosion. Happens when your emotions go too high too quickly, the pressures got to be released. I wouldn't worry too much about it. Is there anyway you could live with your aunt?

 

[timf]

Getting angry, frustrated, or crying can be the result of emotional overload. Mentalmick is correct about things that come too intensely or too quickly. It is like an electrical circuit that has too much current and a circuit breaker trips.

If you face having to deal continually with someone who drives you into overload, you may wish to learn to use some tactics to manage these situations. The person who triggers you is probably not open to a dialog to establish boundaries. This is always the best and easiest solution. However, it is also the one least likely to work.

One tactic is to use questions to hold the other person accountable for their actions. For example, if someone criticizes you, you can ask why they feel hostile to you, what is it specifically they dislike, if they are aware the criticism often triggers a defensive reaction and can make things worse, or how yelling at you will improve anything.

Being able to shift into an analytical mode gives you a degree of control in a situation and questions can force the other person to forgo some of their usual behaviors.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I had this x10 when I was taking SSRIs and whatnot. Are you on any other pills than sedatives?